how to bring out your juices...aah, creative juices I mean!

Let me tell you a story about my officemate, who accompanied me during lunch.

This guy appears "philosophic" what with his extreme views in life, and how he thinks about "the great scheme of things". He usually talks about life, maturity, development and society. I seem to like him for he's good to talk to...well, not all the time, but on times when you just want to ponder upon things and take a look upon how your life has been going on.

On our way to buy lunch, he already told me how mature he feels right now, and how his priorities have changed when he had his kid on custody. At twenty-six, this guy already has a nine-year old kid who stayed with his mom in Japan for some time, but now, he has him for good. From the tone of his voice and the way he converses, you can feel how changed he is as of the moment, and how talking it over with me released all his joy he has been feeling.

After that, we talked about career plans and all. He has great ideas, although it seems that he doesn't how to make an output out of them. He is into photography, and I've seen how his shots seem to be good enough. He has his own camera, which makes me green with envy. He wanted to write, and write macabre themes at that. Currently, he is into reading Edgar Alla Poe stories and all. He wanted to paint, but he doesn;t know how to. He has all this ideas in mind, but he does not know how to materialize it.

Much like me.

Although, I'm trying hard to make an output. I just feel frustrated that I don't have the resources: camera, known people in media with whom I can turn my writing compositions to, somebody who will help me with my writng. Those are mmy problems. Learning things on my own, with no one to help me IS my biggest weakness. Darn

Anyway, back with the guy I was talking with he seemed so engrossed talking about things and letting things out.

I'm currently giving myself a tap on my back since I was able to listen to him. And I think that's one of my great qualities, I know how to listen to different people and know their attitude. It feels good, but sometimes, it's tiring, because you're around different people who would want you to listen.

Haaaay.

Anyway, just then, after lunch and we were back at our posts, this guy told his seatmate about our talks...

he said (in a loud voice that everyone can hear), "we were just talking about to let your juices out!"

THat gave a silence...and I was like"What!" It got me surprised, the way he said it. It didn't sound right!


Realizing the impact of what he said, he rephrased his statement, "OOps!, I'm sorry, it didn't come out right, I mean, how to let your creative juices out!"

Darn...it made me feel embarassed, anyway, we laughed about it after....

ngayon lang ulit

I am not a good blogger, not even a writer, and I must admit, no one visits my blog. I think the reason is that it's so personal, and come to think of it, no one would care of what happens to me...so what, I'm no celebrity, so why should anybody bother.

Anyway, ngayon lang ulit ako nag blog. At this site, anyway.

Ala's site is a fave. I like the way she writes and how she narrates about things.

Bianca's site is personal, journal-like, but of course, everyone visits it. She's a celeb.....

Problema, Problema, Problema

Three weeks ago, I left the house...as in a literal layas...for, err...really personal reasons. But its's good things are now over. In a few days' time, I'm gonna move out on my own apartment, and good thing my family understands my reasons:-)

I'm a late bloomer when it comes to love, romance, courtship and intimacy. There's a guy I like, but...he's on the rebound...or is confused about his girlfriend of three years. He won't tell me about it, but I know about things.

I'm trying my best to think that he's not treating me special, but it's really hard not to feel it, when for one, I would like to feel special. I am confused.

I want to achieve my goals at work. Though it's not my forte, I want to feel successful. I was transferred to a different team, just when I was already thinking about resigning by April. Now, I am confused whether I should stay and build goals, or go to find another job. One that is somehow related to communications and grammar. Read: teaching koreans online:-)

I am confused.

Darn, darn, darn. I hope to find my answers......