meeting people, trusting again, and once again opening up to enjoy life-that is, to look at life in a more sun-shiney manner, recognizing opportunities, and seeing the goodness in every people I meet.
I'm in a current attempt to revive this feeling I used to have...the kind of positive energy which people have known me for...
Because as of the moment, I'm caught in a state of vulnerability.
I try to be careful of meeting people: of knowing my allies and the people whom I need to distance myself with...
I try to be careful of the things I say: because I still don't know if people wil understand, if they will be more forgiving of the things I say, or open to the ideas which I have.
I try not to be too overwhelmed: because i don't know if I''m directing my energies and efforts on the right stuff, where things and decisions will lead me.
And so now, I wait...become observant of the different things revolving in this state, this situation.
At the same time, I try to enjoy, cherish the people whom I meet, because when the time comes that I become, or feel "whole" again, I know whom to thank, whom to look back to, whom to trust!
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NOte to self: follow te sherm's advice: "Do not burn bridges"
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lately, the waters seem rough and restless,
waves getting thicker, more agitated...
and here I am, flowing through the waters of my life,
trying not to drown.
-nyanya
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