in my world, there are only two people who can call me kapatid and really mean it: Tere and Cze.
I love you guys, and I consider you my greatest and most loving sisters!!!
BUt these are not the only people who mean everything in my life.
There's my closest office barkada. My very recent bestfriends who made me tougher and more mature. THank you for your experienced knowledge and for the pieces of advice on growing up and being strong. Thank you for keeping up with my immaturity and for my agressiveness in terms of making decisions for myself. These people include Tin-tin, Joey, Abi, and Rox.
For my team Pep barkada, who kept me sane and constantly remind me of my youth. You've brought back childhood joy and reminded me to enjoy my youth-stage, or that is, to just enjoy what I have as of the moment. Thank you for never failing to bring in the fun and laughter. Thanks to Trisha and Grace (my fave team Pep girlz!), Pit (who is such a bouncy and huggable guy), Pat (he's bearable "yabang-ness" which became funny and one source of laughter as time went by), Mat (who seemed "high" most of the time, for being one of my drinking buddies, and for his green jokes), Marvin (who is my fave ultimate playboy.."matinik sa chicks!", i'll miss his stories about his girls), Rizza and Rox (my second fave team Pep girl buddies), JL (one of my motivators) and Bod (for his natural humor, life of whatever crowd, funny gay and another drinking buddy).
For my wavemates, my first crowd and my group of "ate"s: Jha, Tet, May and Alaine. Being with you feels like i'm on a set of Sex and the City. (of coure, this group includes Tin, but she's in every group I'm in...and she's one of my bestest, most fave persons..)
Doing this "thank-you" post reminded me of that one statement that has been crossing my mind every now and then for a week now. I first heard it on one episode of Grey's anatomy. Dr. Christine Yang said this (about Meredith) "She's my person".
I also heard this phrase when I watched Bolt. Bolt said this to describe his human bestfriend.
To all of these people whom I mentioned, You are all my person.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
sentimental
There always comes a time when we need to move on, change the pattern and find greater heights. Looking for a new environment does not always mean that you want a way out from the current environment that you have. It does not always mean that you are beginning to dislike the people you encounter with each and every single day, nor disliking the things you are doing now.
Finding greater heights means you would like to challenge yourself on other things which you want to do. You put an end to the pattern, and if you'd like, build a new one or disrupt the pattern and live a carefree lifestyle void of routine.
It also means that you are seeking for a new inspiration, a new motivational force which will help you look clearly, more postive and help you appreciate life and living more.
***
On my previous post, I have emphasized on my need to take risks, like that of jumping off a cliff.
And yes, I have took the plunge.
Now, I wonder what lies ahead.
***
Inthe company which I have worked, I've built relationships, made friends. In the process, I have found myself.
I have met people who showed me how it is to take things easy, enjoy being with people, and treasure good friendships which you know will last.
I am grateful for the friendships which I have established. It has made me stronger, and encourage me to smile often and look at life positively.
Me and my friends, we shared a lot - a lot of stories, a lot of problems, a lot of issues, but in the end, we knew with whom to seek comfort.
We found comfort in each and everyone. Each one posed or made an impact in each one's life. It may not seem obvious since we tried to find humor in the everyday issues, but then, internally or personally, I know it has made a difference.
Finding greater heights means you would like to challenge yourself on other things which you want to do. You put an end to the pattern, and if you'd like, build a new one or disrupt the pattern and live a carefree lifestyle void of routine.
It also means that you are seeking for a new inspiration, a new motivational force which will help you look clearly, more postive and help you appreciate life and living more.
***
On my previous post, I have emphasized on my need to take risks, like that of jumping off a cliff.
And yes, I have took the plunge.
Now, I wonder what lies ahead.
***
Inthe company which I have worked, I've built relationships, made friends. In the process, I have found myself.
I have met people who showed me how it is to take things easy, enjoy being with people, and treasure good friendships which you know will last.
I am grateful for the friendships which I have established. It has made me stronger, and encourage me to smile often and look at life positively.
Me and my friends, we shared a lot - a lot of stories, a lot of problems, a lot of issues, but in the end, we knew with whom to seek comfort.
We found comfort in each and everyone. Each one posed or made an impact in each one's life. It may not seem obvious since we tried to find humor in the everyday issues, but then, internally or personally, I know it has made a difference.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Fear of falling
I am afraid of this jump. It's jumping off a cliff, clueless if something or someone's going to break the fall.
This is risk, but if it's something I should have done years before, well, I need to do it.
Sigh.
So, here goes....
Good luck to self...
This is risk, but if it's something I should have done years before, well, I need to do it.
Sigh.
So, here goes....
Good luck to self...
Monday, November 10, 2008
the freelance writing plunge and being grateful...
Last week, I had the opportunity to attend a freelance writing seminar entitled, "Freelance Writing for Dummies". It was the very first of the upcoming series of freelance writing workshops that freelance writer and corporate communicator, Niña Terol will be holding for freelance writer-wannabees.
It had been a very inspiring and motivating workshop, as she explained and gave her insights and experiences as she embarked on her freelance writing career.
A freelance writing career is not an easy task. It requires commitment. It's a matter of knowing where to start, knowing contacts, and knowing how to market yourself.
The opportunities for one to write are diverse. (So diverse, that a writer-wannabee can get overwhelmed).
However, one must be able to detect where to start. Will it be on traditional media, such as print, tv or radio; on adverting and public relation agencies, through corporations (such as writing brochures; through alternative media (such as blogging) and through the academe, such as providing researches.
Establishing contacts is another important thing, since knowing them will give you an opportunity to work, to take on a writing task, and even get published.
To delve into a freelance writing career would mean knowing how to package oneself. It's about letting people know that you are out there, and that your services are available.
The workshop was very conversational in terms of treatment. It provided a fair-sharing of ideas on what one can expect once he or she takes the freelance writing plunge.
Freelance writing is a deep sea. There are lots of opportunities out there, providing avenues to write. One must have the commitment, as well as the positive outlook to take those opportunities, do it well, get published and be known in the writing/communication world.
****
It's overwhelming to be with people who share your same passion, or interests. Conversing with them opens you to a lot of insights. One is given an opportunity to create knowledge, learn new things and to get more inspired and motivated to do his or her craft.
A many thanks to these people!
Personally, I have a lot of people in my life who inspire me. They are too many to mention. If you're one of the people with whom I converse my thoughts with--ranging from ideas, to observations, and rants, then you're one of those people who get me inspired. Sharing my thoughts with you, and knowing your own leaves a mark in me.
Again, a many thanks!
It had been a very inspiring and motivating workshop, as she explained and gave her insights and experiences as she embarked on her freelance writing career.
A freelance writing career is not an easy task. It requires commitment. It's a matter of knowing where to start, knowing contacts, and knowing how to market yourself.
The opportunities for one to write are diverse. (So diverse, that a writer-wannabee can get overwhelmed).
However, one must be able to detect where to start. Will it be on traditional media, such as print, tv or radio; on adverting and public relation agencies, through corporations (such as writing brochures; through alternative media (such as blogging) and through the academe, such as providing researches.
Establishing contacts is another important thing, since knowing them will give you an opportunity to work, to take on a writing task, and even get published.
To delve into a freelance writing career would mean knowing how to package oneself. It's about letting people know that you are out there, and that your services are available.
The workshop was very conversational in terms of treatment. It provided a fair-sharing of ideas on what one can expect once he or she takes the freelance writing plunge.
Freelance writing is a deep sea. There are lots of opportunities out there, providing avenues to write. One must have the commitment, as well as the positive outlook to take those opportunities, do it well, get published and be known in the writing/communication world.
****
It's overwhelming to be with people who share your same passion, or interests. Conversing with them opens you to a lot of insights. One is given an opportunity to create knowledge, learn new things and to get more inspired and motivated to do his or her craft.
A many thanks to these people!
Personally, I have a lot of people in my life who inspire me. They are too many to mention. If you're one of the people with whom I converse my thoughts with--ranging from ideas, to observations, and rants, then you're one of those people who get me inspired. Sharing my thoughts with you, and knowing your own leaves a mark in me.
Again, a many thanks!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
random thoughts this sunday
I have just finished my horror story. It's my first time to seriously make one, but I do hope it's worthy enough. Worthy as in, story tlga sha and not just a composition of too many expositions.
Hmm, will find the courage to place it here once I have critiqued it to a good friend.
****
Slowly, it's coming to me again. Thoughts of finding a new job, one which is more rewarding, one that will really enhance my skills and lets me practice what i really want to do.
I do hope it will happen this coming year. Para new start, para bago.
I guess I had too much dilly-dallying already.
****
Kwentong T.G.I.S
A friend told me that my life is like a scene in T.G.I.S. For those kids of the young generation, or those who aren't that familiar with T.G.I.S, it's that teen flick back in the middle of the nineties which starred Bobby Yan, Angelu de Leon, etc.
Anyway, he says that I am so much into the friends circle, it's as if my life revolves around them, or as he would better put it, parang ikaw ang sentro ng mundo, parang lahat nagre-revolve sayo!" Meaning, there's too much drama, angst, too much of teenhood emotions.
True that I am so into the friends zone with people. Maybe its because I love being surrounded by them, knowing the situation they're at, and trying to help them as much as I can.
I am always surrounded by friends. Whether I'm in a good or bad situation, they're the people I run to.
My frined even laughed when he say a bulk of my barkada pix in my organizer, hindi lang TGIS ang sabi niya, Tabing Ilog pa!
Hehe. I'm just a teeny bopper kind of girl.
I don't deny it. Being teeny bopper has left me with memories of different kinds--different kinds of adventure with friends--funny, rebellious and even daring.
They are a set of memories which encompasses my childhood, my teenhood. It makes me whole. It makes me appreciate every life, every action.
It equips me with a lot of stories to tell, a lot of adventures to share with people.
Tabing Ilog? TGIS? OK lang. I'm happy with that!
Hmm, will find the courage to place it here once I have critiqued it to a good friend.
****
Slowly, it's coming to me again. Thoughts of finding a new job, one which is more rewarding, one that will really enhance my skills and lets me practice what i really want to do.
I do hope it will happen this coming year. Para new start, para bago.
I guess I had too much dilly-dallying already.
****
Kwentong T.G.I.S
A friend told me that my life is like a scene in T.G.I.S. For those kids of the young generation, or those who aren't that familiar with T.G.I.S, it's that teen flick back in the middle of the nineties which starred Bobby Yan, Angelu de Leon, etc.
Anyway, he says that I am so much into the friends circle, it's as if my life revolves around them, or as he would better put it, parang ikaw ang sentro ng mundo, parang lahat nagre-revolve sayo!" Meaning, there's too much drama, angst, too much of teenhood emotions.
True that I am so into the friends zone with people. Maybe its because I love being surrounded by them, knowing the situation they're at, and trying to help them as much as I can.
I am always surrounded by friends. Whether I'm in a good or bad situation, they're the people I run to.
My frined even laughed when he say a bulk of my barkada pix in my organizer, hindi lang TGIS ang sabi niya, Tabing Ilog pa!
Hehe. I'm just a teeny bopper kind of girl.
I don't deny it. Being teeny bopper has left me with memories of different kinds--different kinds of adventure with friends--funny, rebellious and even daring.
They are a set of memories which encompasses my childhood, my teenhood. It makes me whole. It makes me appreciate every life, every action.
It equips me with a lot of stories to tell, a lot of adventures to share with people.
Tabing Ilog? TGIS? OK lang. I'm happy with that!
Monday, October 13, 2008
at kamusta naman...
I should have posted this days ago, but I had some sort of internet connection problem, so it was just now that I was able to post this entry. Read on...
nakalimutan ko yatang may blog ako, kaya hindi ako nakapag update ng bongga!!!
I feel guilty for not being able to write something, anything for this blog. I would like to share a lot of things, but I don't know where to start really.
I don't feel sad, nor negative these past few days, it's just that there has been a lot of things happening lately, things which kept me busy, things which kept my thoughts reserved to me and myself only.
But then, I have this blog, and somehow, there is the need to update it. Sayang naman kung hindi...
So here it goes...
Comfort Zone
Comfort zone is the most abused word I have heard this past few days. or rather this past month. It's the word my friends and officemates used to describe the current situations happening with all of us.
Comfort zone. It's the term used to describe your attitude, your feeling towards the environment you have.
In a way, finding your comfort zone makes you a bit relaxed. It's a feeling that makes you at ease, with the people you are with, with the environment that you have. Finding your comfort zone is not something negative, nor something that needs to be brushed aside.
When you are at your comfort zone, there is no tension at all. Most of the time, being at this situation gives way to more creativity. You are more free to think of creative things, situations, or say the most honest, frank, even the most absurd things, without being sorry about it, with no hesitations.
Take this as an example:
At work, when you are at your comfort zone, you feel more at ease with your co-workers. You are free to say your innermost ideas, or even statements. You feel you are at peace with anyone. After work, you go out with them without feeling guilty, knowing you are at your own crowd.
You do your work, and you know you're doing it right. You are very much familiar with what you're doing. You know it like the back of your hand.
But it doesn't make you at all stressed, because, since you are familiar with it, you immediately know crisis management, or you know when to get back on track.
You bend the rules sometimes, well, not majorly, since you know what menial things to let go, and what tasks are the topmost priority. Say, you've got another overbreak, but that's fine, since you know you can catch up with your work.
HOWEVER, being too much at your comfort zone has its limitations.
Recently, I have read in the Marie Claire mag about staying in your comfort zone. Read along:
It happens to the best of us. Our job becomes so routine that we become too
comfortable. "The surefire way for one's career to stagnate is one becomes
complacent" (Manuel-Santana)
It is also true that being too much at your comfort zone can stagnate you. You are very well at ease with the current environment that you have that you forget that you need to move forward. There is no change. There is too much familiarity that you forget you have so many things to learn, new things to explore. You are confining yourself in a place you very well know that you forget you need to get out of the box.
There are so many things to say about keeping yourself inside this box. Too much to say that it becomes redundant.
At the office, me and my officemate whom I consider my big sister had this conversation on love, relationships, etc. And yes, the topic of being too much at your comfort zone was brought up.
We were talking about her, and her relationship with her boyfriend. She was explaining how she feels about their relationship. How things have changed, why there wasn't too much excitement as before, why it wasn't as overwhelming as before. But she emphasized that she loves him, and that those changes doesn't mean she wants to get out of the relationship, well, not as of the moment. She very well knows his boyfriend, but it doesn't mean she's staying in the relationship because she has nowhere to go to. She points out it's not about being at her comfort zone, but it's all about timing. Knowing when to let go and say enough or to give up.
This. I may say is another lesson concerning comfort zone.
Another lesson on comfort zone which really affected me is the recent rigodon.
I work in a company where teamwork plays a really big role. It's not like any other workplace does not value this kind of value, but for this matter, let me just emphasize this to describe the current workplace I'm in.
So there. I love the team where I'm at. Working with my officemates is not just a mere part of the routine. Working with them is something special. I enjoy working with them, because I can feel our oneness. We are not only workers, we are family (sigh). We go out together, share stories and all. Again, let me say we are a family.
But things needed to change. I guess the company realized there wasn't much change happening with the company right now. I guess the company realized that people are too much at thier comfort zone, that we forgot it's also as workplace which needs to compete.
The management decided to create a major revamp in terms of the team. It was a major reshuffling, that each of us has to be scattered to other different teams. This is done, well as part of the trending happening in our company.
We were all saddened with the news. We had to break away with the kind of people we have shared our work time with. We have to start anew, working with other people--start from square one and meet new people to relate and work with.
But then, as our supervisor said, it's not the end. Accept the change as a challenge, to test as to how far we can go with working with other people. This will help us, test our work-relations skills. It will add up to our experience. It's all part of being in the working arena. In this change, we will know other things, who knows, maybe some of us will be able to climb the corporate ladder.
Yes, we had fun with our team back then, but we have to move forward.
This change breaks pattern, and it helps for us to enjoy other things during our stay in the company.
Knowing when you are at your comfort zone, and knowing when to break out of it are stuff we need to know, Being at one is bliss, but breaking out of it can create change, and help us to start again, start a clean slate, and even move forward!
*****
I miss my officemates and friends, but being in this new team, will give me those new set of experiences...
I wonder what lies ahead....
nakalimutan ko yatang may blog ako, kaya hindi ako nakapag update ng bongga!!!
I feel guilty for not being able to write something, anything for this blog. I would like to share a lot of things, but I don't know where to start really.
I don't feel sad, nor negative these past few days, it's just that there has been a lot of things happening lately, things which kept me busy, things which kept my thoughts reserved to me and myself only.
But then, I have this blog, and somehow, there is the need to update it. Sayang naman kung hindi...
So here it goes...
Comfort Zone
Comfort zone is the most abused word I have heard this past few days. or rather this past month. It's the word my friends and officemates used to describe the current situations happening with all of us.
Comfort zone. It's the term used to describe your attitude, your feeling towards the environment you have.
In a way, finding your comfort zone makes you a bit relaxed. It's a feeling that makes you at ease, with the people you are with, with the environment that you have. Finding your comfort zone is not something negative, nor something that needs to be brushed aside.
When you are at your comfort zone, there is no tension at all. Most of the time, being at this situation gives way to more creativity. You are more free to think of creative things, situations, or say the most honest, frank, even the most absurd things, without being sorry about it, with no hesitations.
Take this as an example:
At work, when you are at your comfort zone, you feel more at ease with your co-workers. You are free to say your innermost ideas, or even statements. You feel you are at peace with anyone. After work, you go out with them without feeling guilty, knowing you are at your own crowd.
You do your work, and you know you're doing it right. You are very much familiar with what you're doing. You know it like the back of your hand.
But it doesn't make you at all stressed, because, since you are familiar with it, you immediately know crisis management, or you know when to get back on track.
You bend the rules sometimes, well, not majorly, since you know what menial things to let go, and what tasks are the topmost priority. Say, you've got another overbreak, but that's fine, since you know you can catch up with your work.
HOWEVER, being too much at your comfort zone has its limitations.
Recently, I have read in the Marie Claire mag about staying in your comfort zone. Read along:
It happens to the best of us. Our job becomes so routine that we become too
comfortable. "The surefire way for one's career to stagnate is one becomes
complacent" (Manuel-Santana)
It is also true that being too much at your comfort zone can stagnate you. You are very well at ease with the current environment that you have that you forget that you need to move forward. There is no change. There is too much familiarity that you forget you have so many things to learn, new things to explore. You are confining yourself in a place you very well know that you forget you need to get out of the box.
There are so many things to say about keeping yourself inside this box. Too much to say that it becomes redundant.
At the office, me and my officemate whom I consider my big sister had this conversation on love, relationships, etc. And yes, the topic of being too much at your comfort zone was brought up.
We were talking about her, and her relationship with her boyfriend. She was explaining how she feels about their relationship. How things have changed, why there wasn't too much excitement as before, why it wasn't as overwhelming as before. But she emphasized that she loves him, and that those changes doesn't mean she wants to get out of the relationship, well, not as of the moment. She very well knows his boyfriend, but it doesn't mean she's staying in the relationship because she has nowhere to go to. She points out it's not about being at her comfort zone, but it's all about timing. Knowing when to let go and say enough or to give up.
This. I may say is another lesson concerning comfort zone.
Another lesson on comfort zone which really affected me is the recent rigodon.
I work in a company where teamwork plays a really big role. It's not like any other workplace does not value this kind of value, but for this matter, let me just emphasize this to describe the current workplace I'm in.
So there. I love the team where I'm at. Working with my officemates is not just a mere part of the routine. Working with them is something special. I enjoy working with them, because I can feel our oneness. We are not only workers, we are family (sigh). We go out together, share stories and all. Again, let me say we are a family.
But things needed to change. I guess the company realized there wasn't much change happening with the company right now. I guess the company realized that people are too much at thier comfort zone, that we forgot it's also as workplace which needs to compete.
The management decided to create a major revamp in terms of the team. It was a major reshuffling, that each of us has to be scattered to other different teams. This is done, well as part of the trending happening in our company.
We were all saddened with the news. We had to break away with the kind of people we have shared our work time with. We have to start anew, working with other people--start from square one and meet new people to relate and work with.
But then, as our supervisor said, it's not the end. Accept the change as a challenge, to test as to how far we can go with working with other people. This will help us, test our work-relations skills. It will add up to our experience. It's all part of being in the working arena. In this change, we will know other things, who knows, maybe some of us will be able to climb the corporate ladder.
Yes, we had fun with our team back then, but we have to move forward.
This change breaks pattern, and it helps for us to enjoy other things during our stay in the company.
Knowing when you are at your comfort zone, and knowing when to break out of it are stuff we need to know, Being at one is bliss, but breaking out of it can create change, and help us to start again, start a clean slate, and even move forward!
*****
I miss my officemates and friends, but being in this new team, will give me those new set of experiences...
I wonder what lies ahead....
Thursday, September 18, 2008
been busy
Had been busy for some time. It was the kind of busy-ness wherein you would like to achieve different things. Accommodate all thing that are in your virtual list of concerns. It's a need to seize every opportunity that comes along your way, because you know that for a time, you have been neglecting those opportunities.
And I guess for some time, I've been successful in trying to achieve those things. It had been a busy week, but I had the time to:
1. Dedicate my time to my full time work
2. Do my side-projects
3. Mingle with friends which I have not seen for a long time
4 . BOnd with the current friends I have. They come in different groups, but in the two weeks time that I had been busy, I managed to be with them at different times.
5. Have attended The International Book Fair. I wasn't able to catch the seminars, due to work, but still I was able to go. And of course, I brought home something from the book fair
6. I made new friends. It's nice to meet and bond with new people. New people whon you know will eventually become your closest friends
7. Was able to let go of someone. No further explanations. Kung baga sa 5 stages of loss twas the acceptance stage
8. Was able to gain back joy in my life
9. Was able to gain my ground.
10. The skies are becoming clear again.
I had been busy, and been in hibernation from the blogging world for a while, since I have to attend to some other things.
But I'm happy, because in a way, I have achieved that balance, and I have gained ground again.
As I've said, the skies are becoming clear again. Now I'm open to new joys, and take on another bout of experiences-either happy or sad. All I can say, I know I have surpassed my gloomy days.
Hmmm. Will take some time to blog some worthwhile pieces, but I'm still working out on them.
Now, I'm in bliss...well not totally, There are still setbacks and hurdles to conquer, but I know, and I'm confident that I can get through them!:-)
And I guess for some time, I've been successful in trying to achieve those things. It had been a busy week, but I had the time to:
1. Dedicate my time to my full time work
2. Do my side-projects
3. Mingle with friends which I have not seen for a long time
4 . BOnd with the current friends I have. They come in different groups, but in the two weeks time that I had been busy, I managed to be with them at different times.
5. Have attended The International Book Fair. I wasn't able to catch the seminars, due to work, but still I was able to go. And of course, I brought home something from the book fair
6. I made new friends. It's nice to meet and bond with new people. New people whon you know will eventually become your closest friends
7. Was able to let go of someone. No further explanations. Kung baga sa 5 stages of loss twas the acceptance stage
8. Was able to gain back joy in my life
9. Was able to gain my ground.
10. The skies are becoming clear again.
I had been busy, and been in hibernation from the blogging world for a while, since I have to attend to some other things.
But I'm happy, because in a way, I have achieved that balance, and I have gained ground again.
As I've said, the skies are becoming clear again. Now I'm open to new joys, and take on another bout of experiences-either happy or sad. All I can say, I know I have surpassed my gloomy days.
Hmmm. Will take some time to blog some worthwhile pieces, but I'm still working out on them.
Now, I'm in bliss...well not totally, There are still setbacks and hurdles to conquer, but I know, and I'm confident that I can get through them!:-)
Friday, August 29, 2008
darkness
The sun sets.
And we both sit here.
Waiting.
We wait for the darkness
to set in
and fill us.
A darkness
We cannot comprehend.
We cannot grasp.
We let this darkness
Embrace us.
Unfold before us.
Like any other day
We used to have...
And we both sit here.
Waiting.
We wait for the darkness
to set in
and fill us.
A darkness
We cannot comprehend.
We cannot grasp.
We let this darkness
Embrace us.
Unfold before us.
Like any other day
We used to have...
I took this photo during my vacation in Bicol, early this year...
stumbled upon...
guess what, I was mindlessly clicking on some news on yahoo, when I stumbled upon a picture of Charlize theron, with her hubby Stuart Townsend....
siyyeeeettt...pagmamahal..
I so love him. Have watched him for the first time as the vampire lezstat on Queen of the damned...
grabeh na itooo...sigh
Just a tidbit...
He was supposed to play the part as Aragorn in Lord of the Rings, but was replaced by Viggo Mortensen. Those who work on the casting say he's too young for the role
haaay..if Townsend was cast even for another role in the movie, I would have loved it...I would have been a fan...
He has an up and coming film, which will be released this September. He directed the movie as well...
Galing!, Astig!:-)
siyyeeeettt...pagmamahal..I so love him. Have watched him for the first time as the vampire lezstat on Queen of the damned...
grabeh na itooo...sigh
Just a tidbit...
He was supposed to play the part as Aragorn in Lord of the Rings, but was replaced by Viggo Mortensen. Those who work on the casting say he's too young for the role
haaay..if Townsend was cast even for another role in the movie, I would have loved it...I would have been a fan...
He has an up and coming film, which will be released this September. He directed the movie as well...
Galing!, Astig!:-)
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Transparency
Not so long ago, a friend told me that I am a transparent person. This means that my gesture, or expression is immediately shown in my reactions. I cannot hide my feelings. If I feel elated, expect me to become really happy to the point of...smiling most of the time. The aura of happiness is immediately seen. Or if I feel sad, gloomy or negative, expect a dark cloud over my head. You can see from my face that gloomy expression, you can see that a lot of things has been bothering me.
In a way, this attitude has its upsides and downsides. For one, transparency presents genuiness, no matter how good or bad one's expression is. People appreciate true reaction at the onset. On the other hand, transparency, on the part of the person who has this attitude can try very hard for others not to see this expression. They may want to try to hide it, to prevent over reaction. However, at times a transparent person wants to hide the expression, what comes out is a blank, stoic expression. You end up being poker-faced.
In the end, the more one tries to hide the transparency, all the more is it shown.
In a way, this attitude has its upsides and downsides. For one, transparency presents genuiness, no matter how good or bad one's expression is. People appreciate true reaction at the onset. On the other hand, transparency, on the part of the person who has this attitude can try very hard for others not to see this expression. They may want to try to hide it, to prevent over reaction. However, at times a transparent person wants to hide the expression, what comes out is a blank, stoic expression. You end up being poker-faced.
In the end, the more one tries to hide the transparency, all the more is it shown.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Thank you, thank you!!!!
When you are at a surge of emotions, and if you have been feeling down for some time,, little complements can flatter you to a point wherein you will ask yourself, "totoo kaya yung sinasabi niya, or she's just saying that to make me feel good?"
But then, simple complements are something to thank for. At one perspective complements make you feel good. It gives you a certain motivation, helping you to think clearer, and help you feel much better, more trustful in yourself, if not purely bringing back the confidence, it fills up your cup of confidence that nourishes you even more.
At another perspective, the cynical would say "Uy, bola".
But it's up to you what perspective you'll believe.
If you believe that the complement is true, you'll feel better. If you believe that complement is a nonsense word that, err, gives out euphemism or such by other people so as not to hurt your feelings, it's still your choice.
I choose to feel better.
I choose such, because, it makes me feel good. It boosts me to do more. Again, it's about perspective. It's about looking at things with rose-tinted glasses.
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But then, simple complements are something to thank for. At one perspective complements make you feel good. It gives you a certain motivation, helping you to think clearer, and help you feel much better, more trustful in yourself, if not purely bringing back the confidence, it fills up your cup of confidence that nourishes you even more.
At another perspective, the cynical would say "Uy, bola".
But it's up to you what perspective you'll believe.
If you believe that the complement is true, you'll feel better. If you believe that complement is a nonsense word that, err, gives out euphemism or such by other people so as not to hurt your feelings, it's still your choice.
I choose to feel better.
I choose such, because, it makes me feel good. It boosts me to do more. Again, it's about perspective. It's about looking at things with rose-tinted glasses.
****
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
crush...
I find this woman really pretty. Astig.
She's Leryn Franco, the 26-year-old javelin thrower from Paraguay.
Siya ang bagong hearthrob sa Beijing Olympics. She's currently capturing the hearts of people from different countries. Inabangan siya ng mga spectators, writers, cameramen, etc.
Take note, sabi ng isang writer:
Ms. Franco became the object of our attention after she was noticed by NBC cameras during the Parade of Nations at the Olympic Opening Ceremony...and since then our schoolboy crush blossomed into unrequited love.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
When lightning strikes
Some time ago, two friends had a conversation about their lives, their dreams, their attitudes toward things, how they perceive people coming into their lives and about relationships.
Friend 1: Siguro the reason why I'm not capable of having a long term relationship is because, I can handle myself, my moods alone. Sanay akong mag-isa. Ako kasi, when somebody gives me attention, I feel really elated, and I gain ground. It's a good thing, although, I hate the idea of gaining that ground because you know there is a certain person who stands beside you. What if that person leaves you? E di you'll fall to the ground, di ka na magiging stable. Before you go into a relationship, kailangan stable na paninidigan mo sa sarili mo. It's one of the factors that will help a relationship grow, and help you grow individually as a person. If you feel unstable or uncomfortable with who you are and go into a relationship, then brace yourself for an emotional whirlwind. But if you know what you want and you handle your emotions well, a relationship can toughen you up.
Friend 2: Ako naman, I know what I can do, and I know my limitations. Alam ko kung hanggang saan lang ako dapat. Tsaka, hindi ko priority ang love, I mean relationship, kasi I have this feeling na pe-perahan ka lang, or someone will just take advantage. About intimacy, ayokong mangyari yun, kasi, pag gusto ko ang isang bagay, hahanap-hanapin ko. Just the same with going intimate with another person, ayokong masanay, ayokong hanap-hanapin yun. Ika nga, once you pop, you can't stop. Ayoko nun.
****
Sabi na kasing wag nang mag-invest ng feelings e.
Meron kasing mga taong takot magsabi ng mararamdaman hanggat hindi sila nagiging sure na reciprocated ang feelings nila. Magiging close kayo, maghihintay ka ng pagkakataong magsabi shiya, pero hindi naman darating. Aasa ka ng aasa hanggat sa marealize mong wala ka na palang dapat pang asahan kasi bumalik siya sa iniwan niyang girlfriend.
Badtrip. Confused lang pala si lalake, at naghahanap ng kapalit.
So. ayan, ikaw, at a loss ka. Bakit mo pa kasi inentertain ang hudas. At bakit mo pa kasi hinayang kiligin ang sarili mo sa mga bagay-bagay na ginagawa niya para sayo.
So, naisahan ka na naman.
Kala mo you are getting even by being passive and not showing your feelings, though you went out with him for a time.
So paano nang gagawin mo? Nasaan na ang ere ng confidence na ipinakita mo dati nung nandyan pa siya sa tabi mo?
Tongerks ka kasi. So, ayan, tinamaan ka ng kidlat.
*****
At sa munting @ssH)0Le! na duwag, karmahin ka sana. You are not worthy of anything, even friendship....Asa ka pang bumalik ang pagkakaibigan ninyo. Hindi na pwedeng mangyari yun. Things have to change, dahil kung hindi, pareho lang kayong nagpapakatanga at nagpaplastikan!
Tamaan ka rin sana ng kidlat!
ofis ramblings
Office burn-out is not something uncommon. It happens to anyone working, and has been employed for a company or workplace for a long time. It gives you this feeling of being..inefficient, stupid, or simply tired of thinking...or of not thinking..or of getting used to the everyday pattern, routine.
There comes a time when you are at a loss for words, or at a loss of expressing yourself, or at things you want to share. It's a feeling that robs you out of your creative juices, well, either work-related, or socially.
That's why a certain part of the brain needs to be exercised, needs to be used.
Suggested topics to exercise a part of your brain is to play sudoku, scrabble, crossword puzzles and other games that involve thinking.
In short, don't succumb to the pattern. Hindi ka robot. Find ways to think.
There comes a time when you are at a loss for words, or at a loss of expressing yourself, or at things you want to share. It's a feeling that robs you out of your creative juices, well, either work-related, or socially.
That's why a certain part of the brain needs to be exercised, needs to be used.
Suggested topics to exercise a part of your brain is to play sudoku, scrabble, crossword puzzles and other games that involve thinking.
In short, don't succumb to the pattern. Hindi ka robot. Find ways to think.
taking a breather
I'm keeping myself busy these days. I have this feeling that at some point I need to be anxious and focus on things that I want to achieve. Been a happy-go-lucky person for a long time that I forgot to be prim and proper. I don't know if it's just me and because I become neurotic and paranoid at some point, or it's just a normal mood swing undertaken by a lot of people?
These times, I find it difficult to express myself. Maybe because I feel that I have to behave. I need to focus on more important things or else be branded as the stupid, careless girl.
But I do know I have to chill, and I need to enjoy whatever is happening to me.
But there is this part of me that says, "hey, you need discipline, hey you need focus"
Take a break. That is.
Need to release this burn-out. Need to release the negativity...
*****
Bakasyon, bakasyon, kailangan ko nang bakasyon!!!!
*****
Pag nakakaumay na ang mga bagay-bagay kailangan nang gumawa ng something para magchange ang pattern.
Haaay, lahat ng iyan, nagsisimula sa isang bakason, tapos nun, bongga na...recharge na uli!:-)
These times, I find it difficult to express myself. Maybe because I feel that I have to behave. I need to focus on more important things or else be branded as the stupid, careless girl.
But I do know I have to chill, and I need to enjoy whatever is happening to me.
But there is this part of me that says, "hey, you need discipline, hey you need focus"
Take a break. That is.
Need to release this burn-out. Need to release the negativity...
*****
Bakasyon, bakasyon, kailangan ko nang bakasyon!!!!
*****
Pag nakakaumay na ang mga bagay-bagay kailangan nang gumawa ng something para magchange ang pattern.
Haaay, lahat ng iyan, nagsisimula sa isang bakason, tapos nun, bongga na...recharge na uli!:-)
Sunday, August 17, 2008
random posts
Busy with some articles for a writing stint. I somehow managed to post something and share some new thoughts on whatevers...
Recently realized the effect of brain drain in our country, and how it has been ailing our country...
Recently realized how much I take pride in still working in our own grounds, though people would prefer to work for other countries==Study in our country, for the reason of getting out of here...how sad:(
Recently realized how much amount of pride is needed to work for yourself..without asking for anybody's help... It's still pride, but in the end, if you achieve what you want, without needing for help, working on your own present great rewards. Truly, it makes you more confident with your own powers, your own capability.
Recently realized how much it needs to stay focused, in order for you to achieve what you want.
Had a bit of regret for not being that much disciplined, but still just realizing that you need discipline, and you act about it, (though at times, you give in to your comforts, yet still you try hard not to give in too much, or not as often as before)is rewarding in itself.
****
Ayun, so hiwalay na si Jennifer Aniston at John Mayer. I like them as a couple, because I like them as individuals. Jen as the actress I have loved in Friends, and John Mayer for his superb talent in composing songs and playing for the guitar.
But then, as John Mayer would put it, people come to a point when they realized they have different chemistries. Well, that's just how it is with being involved with someone. Either for a short term or long term relations, when you realized this point, it's either you try to save it, or you treat is another one of those "love-relationship-experience" and move on to better things.
Hopefully for John Mayer, it's another experience that will be much more heart fully rendered on one of his future lyrics.
John Mayer has been a gentleman for saying these words. Very well said, that is:
Recently realized the effect of brain drain in our country, and how it has been ailing our country...
Recently realized how much I take pride in still working in our own grounds, though people would prefer to work for other countries==Study in our country, for the reason of getting out of here...how sad:(
Recently realized how much amount of pride is needed to work for yourself..without asking for anybody's help... It's still pride, but in the end, if you achieve what you want, without needing for help, working on your own present great rewards. Truly, it makes you more confident with your own powers, your own capability.
Recently realized how much it needs to stay focused, in order for you to achieve what you want.
Had a bit of regret for not being that much disciplined, but still just realizing that you need discipline, and you act about it, (though at times, you give in to your comforts, yet still you try hard not to give in too much, or not as often as before)is rewarding in itself.
****
Ayun, so hiwalay na si Jennifer Aniston at John Mayer. I like them as a couple, because I like them as individuals. Jen as the actress I have loved in Friends, and John Mayer for his superb talent in composing songs and playing for the guitar.
But then, as John Mayer would put it, people come to a point when they realized they have different chemistries. Well, that's just how it is with being involved with someone. Either for a short term or long term relations, when you realized this point, it's either you try to save it, or you treat is another one of those "love-relationship-experience" and move on to better things.
Hopefully for John Mayer, it's another experience that will be much more heart fully rendered on one of his future lyrics.
John Mayer has been a gentleman for saying these words. Very well said, that is:
"(on Being with Jen, and splitting up)It's the most normal thing in the world,"... "There's no lying, there's no cheating. ... It's about going out with somebody, being truthful on the way in, being truthful in the middle and being truthful on the way out.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
The love of siam
for all the loves we have in our life...
How can we show love when it is bound by gender? How can we show love again, when we have lost someone ? How can we show love when it seems unreciprocated?
These are just some of the conditions presented in the movie from Thailand, The Love of Siam.
The story starts with two boys Tong and Mew who were childhood friends. Tong, being older, seems to play the big brother role to Mew.
However. the two had to be separated after a mishap on Tong's family wherein they lost Tang, Tong's older sister, during one of their family trips.
Over time, they lived their own lives. Mew, became a young musician, who wrote songs and performed for their band., while Tong became a simple high school student, and lived the life of being an only son to a family who still bereaved over the loss of their other daughter.
It is with Mew's music that the two were able reunite and continue their friendship.
The two were beset with issues on how they show their friendship with one another, and thus in time was questioned or looked down for having a gay relationship and how a family tries to critique and even "stop" this kind of friendship from going deeper.
Also, it tackled on losing a loved one in one's life, and how a family tried to cope with it. After the loss of Tang, Tong's family had been living a sad life, regretting over the loss and blaming themselves for this loss. A stranger entered their life, who seem to remind them of this family member, and with this, the stranger was able to create an impact on their life.
Lastly, it dealt with unreciprocated love. Yin has been harboring hidden feeling for Mew. She makes moves for him to notice her. However, Mew cannot seem to give back this love as how she wants it to be, because, Mew has this other,stronger love...well, for Tong that is.
I find the movie really inspiring and touching. It transcends gender, and shows love amid criticism. It shows how we can still love, although it seems that we cannot have the kind of love we have been asking for. Or for treasuring and cherishing the love which we had once, and for accepting the friendship we can only have from a person. It's a story about loving and giving way. For hoping, continuing to love and always feeling special, and always loved.
****
There was this one conversation that I feel really striking:
Tong (to Mew): I'm sorry if I cannot be your boyfriend...but it doesn't mean that I don't love you.
****
I find Ying's character very sacrificial. She had to give way to her love, because she had to accept that her two friends, Mew and Tong have a more, stronger love for one another.
aawww...:=(
****
I find this scene meaningful:
It was christmas time. Tong was helping her mother set up the christmas tree. He asked her mother what would be a nicer design for the tree, would it be the girl ornament, or the boy ornament?
Her mother who seemed irritated said, "you can put whatever you like."
Tong told her: "but what if I choose one and you don't like it. You'll get upset at me again."
The mother meaningfully gazed at his son and said: "Choose whatever you like. What you think is best for yourself"
*****
I find the songs here really upbeat as well!
****
I highly recommend for you to watch this film:=) Not only is it nice, it will change your perspective on finding, appreciating and accepting love. I can't find words to bash this film kasi hindi naman sha karapat dapat i bash. Love the movie, really, really love it!
****
I find the characters really cute. Hmm..boy love...wahaha...but it seems really nice. It's not disgusting to look at. It's...heartwarming!:=)
ang g-gwapo ng mga batang ito dito..at yung girls, they seem really chic...katuwa!:)
****
some tidbits regarding the movie:
The movie is described as a multi-layered family drama (true, it's a film for all ages, and as Ive said, it won't disgust you at all..)
Bangkok Post film critic Kong Rithdee called the film "groundbreaking", in terms of being the first Thai film "to discuss teenagers' sexuality with frankness".
The Love of Siam dominated Thailand's 2007 film awards season, winning the Best Picture category.
How can we show love when it is bound by gender? How can we show love again, when we have lost someone ? How can we show love when it seems unreciprocated?
These are just some of the conditions presented in the movie from Thailand, The Love of Siam.
The story starts with two boys Tong and Mew who were childhood friends. Tong, being older, seems to play the big brother role to Mew.
However. the two had to be separated after a mishap on Tong's family wherein they lost Tang, Tong's older sister, during one of their family trips.
Over time, they lived their own lives. Mew, became a young musician, who wrote songs and performed for their band., while Tong became a simple high school student, and lived the life of being an only son to a family who still bereaved over the loss of their other daughter.
It is with Mew's music that the two were able reunite and continue their friendship.
The two were beset with issues on how they show their friendship with one another, and thus in time was questioned or looked down for having a gay relationship and how a family tries to critique and even "stop" this kind of friendship from going deeper.
Also, it tackled on losing a loved one in one's life, and how a family tried to cope with it. After the loss of Tang, Tong's family had been living a sad life, regretting over the loss and blaming themselves for this loss. A stranger entered their life, who seem to remind them of this family member, and with this, the stranger was able to create an impact on their life.
Lastly, it dealt with unreciprocated love. Yin has been harboring hidden feeling for Mew. She makes moves for him to notice her. However, Mew cannot seem to give back this love as how she wants it to be, because, Mew has this other,stronger love...well, for Tong that is.
I find the movie really inspiring and touching. It transcends gender, and shows love amid criticism. It shows how we can still love, although it seems that we cannot have the kind of love we have been asking for. Or for treasuring and cherishing the love which we had once, and for accepting the friendship we can only have from a person. It's a story about loving and giving way. For hoping, continuing to love and always feeling special, and always loved.
****
There was this one conversation that I feel really striking:
Tong (to Mew): I'm sorry if I cannot be your boyfriend...but it doesn't mean that I don't love you.
****
I find Ying's character very sacrificial. She had to give way to her love, because she had to accept that her two friends, Mew and Tong have a more, stronger love for one another.
aawww...:=(
****
I find this scene meaningful:
It was christmas time. Tong was helping her mother set up the christmas tree. He asked her mother what would be a nicer design for the tree, would it be the girl ornament, or the boy ornament?
Her mother who seemed irritated said, "you can put whatever you like."
Tong told her: "but what if I choose one and you don't like it. You'll get upset at me again."
The mother meaningfully gazed at his son and said: "Choose whatever you like. What you think is best for yourself"
*****
I find the songs here really upbeat as well!
****
I highly recommend for you to watch this film:=) Not only is it nice, it will change your perspective on finding, appreciating and accepting love. I can't find words to bash this film kasi hindi naman sha karapat dapat i bash. Love the movie, really, really love it!
****
I find the characters really cute. Hmm..boy love...wahaha...but it seems really nice. It's not disgusting to look at. It's...heartwarming!:=)
ang g-gwapo ng mga batang ito dito..at yung girls, they seem really chic...katuwa!:)
****
some tidbits regarding the movie:
The movie is described as a multi-layered family drama (true, it's a film for all ages, and as Ive said, it won't disgust you at all..)
Bangkok Post film critic Kong Rithdee called the film "groundbreaking", in terms of being the first Thai film "to discuss teenagers' sexuality with frankness".
The Love of Siam dominated Thailand's 2007 film awards season, winning the Best Picture category.
Monday, August 11, 2008
"happy na...birthday pa"
Recently celebrated my birthday in the midst of officemates, who, made a countdown and as soon as the clock stroke 12, cheered and gave me batches and batches of warm birthday greetings and all. I assume it was even heard by other departments near our area.
Yes, I'm 23. A year older. As many of my officemates tell me, bata ka pa.
It's kind of an assurance for me na, yes, I'm still young and there are a lot of things in store for me. Though at times, I really feel like, I'm getting slow in terms of moving forward and doing what I want. I'm still young, and starting to create a happy, and hopefully stable future for me personally, career-wise and financially.
I am happy this day, not because I was able to celebrate it materially. To admit, I didn't have any celebration. Well, except dining out with my family.
Hmm...there are a lot of people I would like to thank this day. (Naks, feeling artista, may pa-thank you pa...pero pagbigyan na, birthday ko ngayon...hehe)
Specially:
amg buong Pep squad! (officemates): na sabado pa lang ay gini-greet nako...
si bro: na kahit kaaway ko at lagi akong inaasar at inaalaska ay nang-greet pa din
si grace: na kahit na tga kabilang ibayo ay dumayo pa pra manggreet
mga ka-friendster ko, including college friends, dating officemates, cousins: na nagpost ng comment para sa kin:-)
sa parish-mates including kasamahan sa lectors' grp, at choir: for not forgetting!
kay chrissy: nagiging haggard na kakamanage, at nag-isip pa talaga habang hinu-hug ako...nag-iisip kung kelan ang bday ko...basta alam niya augus...hehe: aus lang yun, friend!
kay trisha: na nagpasimula ng countdown!, luv u friend!
si "@ssho--e! (ops, bawal ang mura) na nakuhang magtext, kahit na hind nmn practical na magtext sha, at kahit pa nagtatanong siya kung may nagawa ba siyang kasalanan sa akin: magaling ka rin pumili ng araw para magtanong niyan...sa birthday ko pa...
lay linajob alert: infairness, di niya nakakalimutan ang birthday ng lahat ng taong kilalla niya! hahaha!!!!!!!!
kay abi: na two years ago, on this same day ay pinaghintay ako sa taxi dahil sabay kaming papasok sa ofis, at it turned out na sumakay siya ng ibang taxi. Pero nakita niya ako, lumabas siya ng taxi na sinakyan niya, at lumipat sa taxi na sinasakyan ko. Dahil sa insidenteng ito, pareho kaming late for work. Tandang-tando ko...naka pink ako non!!! hahaha!
siyempre, sa lahat ng kamag anak ko: na nagtext ng greetings nila at email! yey!!! Pasensiya na kung di ako nagpaparamdam..haay..
Ayun, masarap mag thank you sa mga tao. Masarap maging center of attention, even just for a day. I miss the feeling of "owning a day" wherein you are given a break, you are free to do what you want, and people won't bother, why: kasi araw mo ngayon.
Anyway, I think that this should be an everyday feeling. It's a feeling of being comfortable with yourself, you acknowledge your want, a feeling of appreciation for the big and small things other people do for you.
Yun lang.:-)
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ang conference ng mga taong nagpapakasaya!
Roxanne> 3 mins till nina's bday!!!
ako> ahaha..oo nga!
James> 2 MINS
Roxanne > 2 mins!
ako> countdown?
Roxanne> yeah!
Roxanne> countdown to libre!
Roxanne> haha
Roxanne> joke
Roxanne>
Mat> hapi n b-day pa
Trisha> 2mins and 20 sec
Trisha> 19
Trisha> 18
Trisha> 17
Trisha> 13
Trisha> 1
Trisha> mins
Gelo> wow,libre,c nina n tlg pnkamabait s lht,cryoso
Roxanne> true true
Roxanne>
Mat> hapi na b-day pa
ako> wow...aus ha....
Ann> c gelo tlga wlng hilig s fud
Roxanne> seconds na lang!!!!
ako> uu nga, c gelo, basta fud...nagigising!,
Mat> b day na
ako> cryoso un kht wlang libre,unang kta ko plng mabait n naicp ko
Roxanne> happy bday nina!!!!!
ako> salamatz!!!!!!!!!!
Mat> kulit ni gelo
ako> uu, ngaun lang ako hiniritan ni gelo ng ganun a!
sir pep> happy bday nyanya-chase
ahaha!!!!
*****
ka-dramahan! (advice ko lang...don't be too hard on your life...)
Ann> rox..nanu2od kp dn b ng mr. bean?
Roxanne> hinde
Roxanne> coz i find it utterly stupid
Ann> gnun?
Roxanne> yes
Roxanne> ever since
Sir Pep> i used to find it stupid when i was a kid
Mat> MR. BEAN IS DA BEST
Ann> ay..mtaas nga pla iq mo..pang masa kc un e
Sir Pep-> pero gusto ko na rin sya
Roxanne> ganon??
Sir Pep> ay..mtaas nga pla iq mo..pang masa kc un e
Sir Pep> huwaw
Ann> yap
Roxanne> nonsense kasi sa kin. sorry naman
Sir Pep> saan galing yun
Roxanne> di ko maappreciate humor nya
Roxanne> kung humor man un
Ann> ibg lng sbhn nun,dpt mga ktangahn s buhay,tnatawanan n lng,,gnun lng un..
Sir Pep> exactly
Roxanne> branded mga pinoy sa mga ganyan
Roxanne> puro tawa
Ann> korak!\
Roxanne> in short
Roxanne> they deny the existence of the prob
Roxanne> kala nila
Roxanne> nadadaana lahat sa tawa
Ann> no..
Sir Pep> hhahaha
Ann> positive kpa dn dpt
Ann> d dpt patinag s problem..simple
Roxanne> yes positive
Roxanne> but not
Roxanne> too humorous
Roxanne> to the point
Roxanne> of denying the existence of the prob
Roxanne> para sa kin
James > kapag sineseryoso ang problema lalong lulaki..
Roxanne> ung ibang tao na sobra na ganun paniniwala
Roxanne> baliw
Sir Pep> laughing doesnt make the problem go away
Mary Ann Sabaybay> nu kb?mr bean lng cnsb ko nuh..
Let me just give my own take. I didn't want to join in on the conversation. Because I didn;t want to explain much. But here's my two cents worht of explanation.
True, the problem doesn't go away when you merely laugh about it. BUt laughing lightens up your mood. It's a big help. Some kind of relief.
BAkit, kung idadaan mo ba sa pagkaseryoso angmga bagay bagay nawawala ba ang problema?
No. So, in a way. It's just right the stupidity, the mistakes we experienced or have done in our lives are things to be laughed about. Kasi nangyari na e. Dwelling on it, not feeling better, and regreting just make you feel worse...
haaaaay...langya, kay Mr. Bean lang nagsimula ang usapan ha...hehe
********
Ayun, o sha, birthday ko, since I should "go out and smell the flowers"...time to mingle with other people nmn!:-)
Yes, I'm 23. A year older. As many of my officemates tell me, bata ka pa.
It's kind of an assurance for me na, yes, I'm still young and there are a lot of things in store for me. Though at times, I really feel like, I'm getting slow in terms of moving forward and doing what I want. I'm still young, and starting to create a happy, and hopefully stable future for me personally, career-wise and financially.
I am happy this day, not because I was able to celebrate it materially. To admit, I didn't have any celebration. Well, except dining out with my family.
Hmm...there are a lot of people I would like to thank this day. (Naks, feeling artista, may pa-thank you pa...pero pagbigyan na, birthday ko ngayon...hehe)
Specially:
amg buong Pep squad! (officemates): na sabado pa lang ay gini-greet nako...
si bro: na kahit kaaway ko at lagi akong inaasar at inaalaska ay nang-greet pa din
si grace: na kahit na tga kabilang ibayo ay dumayo pa pra manggreet
mga ka-friendster ko, including college friends, dating officemates, cousins: na nagpost ng comment para sa kin:-)
sa parish-mates including kasamahan sa lectors' grp, at choir: for not forgetting!
kay chrissy: nagiging haggard na kakamanage, at nag-isip pa talaga habang hinu-hug ako...nag-iisip kung kelan ang bday ko...basta alam niya augus...hehe: aus lang yun, friend!
kay trisha: na nagpasimula ng countdown!, luv u friend!
si "@ssho--e! (ops, bawal ang mura) na nakuhang magtext, kahit na hind nmn practical na magtext sha, at kahit pa nagtatanong siya kung may nagawa ba siyang kasalanan sa akin: magaling ka rin pumili ng araw para magtanong niyan...sa birthday ko pa...
lay linajob alert: infairness, di niya nakakalimutan ang birthday ng lahat ng taong kilalla niya! hahaha!!!!!!!!
kay abi: na two years ago, on this same day ay pinaghintay ako sa taxi dahil sabay kaming papasok sa ofis, at it turned out na sumakay siya ng ibang taxi. Pero nakita niya ako, lumabas siya ng taxi na sinakyan niya, at lumipat sa taxi na sinasakyan ko. Dahil sa insidenteng ito, pareho kaming late for work. Tandang-tando ko...naka pink ako non!!! hahaha!
siyempre, sa lahat ng kamag anak ko: na nagtext ng greetings nila at email! yey!!! Pasensiya na kung di ako nagpaparamdam..haay..
Ayun, masarap mag thank you sa mga tao. Masarap maging center of attention, even just for a day. I miss the feeling of "owning a day" wherein you are given a break, you are free to do what you want, and people won't bother, why: kasi araw mo ngayon.
Anyway, I think that this should be an everyday feeling. It's a feeling of being comfortable with yourself, you acknowledge your want, a feeling of appreciation for the big and small things other people do for you.
Yun lang.:-)
*********
******
ang conference ng mga taong nagpapakasaya!
Roxanne> 3 mins till nina's bday!!!
ako> ahaha..oo nga!
James> 2 MINS
Roxanne > 2 mins!
ako> countdown?
Roxanne> yeah!
Roxanne> countdown to libre!
Roxanne> haha
Roxanne> joke
Roxanne>
Mat> hapi n b-day pa
Trisha> 2mins and 20 sec
Trisha> 19
Trisha> 18
Trisha> 17
Trisha> 13
Trisha> 1
Trisha> mins
Gelo> wow,libre,c nina n tlg pnkamabait s lht,cryoso
Roxanne> true true
Roxanne>
Mat> hapi na b-day pa
ako> wow...aus ha....
Ann> c gelo tlga wlng hilig s fud
Roxanne> seconds na lang!!!!
ako> uu nga, c gelo, basta fud...nagigising!,
Mat> b day na
ako> cryoso un kht wlang libre,unang kta ko plng mabait n naicp ko
Roxanne> happy bday nina!!!!!
ako> salamatz!!!!!!!!!!
Mat> kulit ni gelo
ako> uu, ngaun lang ako hiniritan ni gelo ng ganun a!
sir pep> happy bday nyanya-chase
ahaha!!!!
*****
ka-dramahan! (advice ko lang...don't be too hard on your life...)
Ann> rox..nanu2od kp dn b ng mr. bean?
Roxanne> hinde
Roxanne> coz i find it utterly stupid
Ann> gnun?
Roxanne> yes
Roxanne> ever since
Sir Pep> i used to find it stupid when i was a kid
Mat> MR. BEAN IS DA BEST
Ann> ay..mtaas nga pla iq mo..pang masa kc un e
Sir Pep-> pero gusto ko na rin sya
Roxanne> ganon??
Sir Pep> ay..mtaas nga pla iq mo..pang masa kc un e
Sir Pep> huwaw
Ann> yap
Roxanne> nonsense kasi sa kin. sorry naman
Sir Pep> saan galing yun
Roxanne> di ko maappreciate humor nya
Roxanne> kung humor man un
Ann> ibg lng sbhn nun,dpt mga ktangahn s buhay,tnatawanan n lng,,gnun lng un..
Sir Pep> exactly
Roxanne> branded mga pinoy sa mga ganyan
Roxanne> puro tawa
Ann> korak!\
Roxanne> in short
Roxanne> they deny the existence of the prob
Roxanne> kala nila
Roxanne> nadadaana lahat sa tawa
Ann> no..
Sir Pep> hhahaha
Ann> positive kpa dn dpt
Ann> d dpt patinag s problem..simple
Roxanne> yes positive
Roxanne> but not
Roxanne> too humorous
Roxanne> to the point
Roxanne> of denying the existence of the prob
Roxanne> para sa kin
James > kapag sineseryoso ang problema lalong lulaki..
Roxanne> ung ibang tao na sobra na ganun paniniwala
Roxanne> baliw
Sir Pep> laughing doesnt make the problem go away
Mary Ann Sabaybay> nu kb?mr bean lng cnsb ko nuh..
Let me just give my own take. I didn't want to join in on the conversation. Because I didn;t want to explain much. But here's my two cents worht of explanation.
True, the problem doesn't go away when you merely laugh about it. BUt laughing lightens up your mood. It's a big help. Some kind of relief.
BAkit, kung idadaan mo ba sa pagkaseryoso angmga bagay bagay nawawala ba ang problema?
No. So, in a way. It's just right the stupidity, the mistakes we experienced or have done in our lives are things to be laughed about. Kasi nangyari na e. Dwelling on it, not feeling better, and regreting just make you feel worse...
haaaaay...langya, kay Mr. Bean lang nagsimula ang usapan ha...hehe
********
Ayun, o sha, birthday ko, since I should "go out and smell the flowers"...time to mingle with other people nmn!:-)
Friday, August 8, 2008
Jay...and me
Wednesday Night, me and my friend headed over at UP film Institute to watch "Jay". It won as best film for this year's Cinemalaya 2008.
The story was sort of a docu-drama , tackling the life of a certain person named Jay. A homosexual, wose mysterious death was the topic of a TV show, entitled "The Dearly Departed" (which is sort of a crossbreed of SOCO, and Wish ko Lang...hmm...goodluck on imagining or thinking about the comparison)
The team which documented on the drama, who was named Jay as well, portrayed by actor Baron Geisler interviewed the family and loved ones of the victim. It documented the drama and impact of his death to them.
It showed how media manipulates the drama, in order to show the emotion, and thus appeal to the emotions of its viewers.
What's funny to note is how they show this drama, in an exaggerated, but well..funny manner. Jay asks a family member to reenact a scene or to deliberately mourn over or wail when they see "Jay's" body. The family member will then act, even check herself in the mirror, re-touch, and even say, "ok, take na"
The use of the name "Jay" in the story shows the comparison between the two persons with different personalities, but share the same name. Both are homosexuals. But "Jay" who was murdered by another person was dearly loved by his family and even say he hasn't done anything wrong, or that he was a nice, reserved type of gay. On the other hand, "JAy", the one who documented his death knew he had persoanl issues to resolve. He may be fulfilled career-wise and in financial terms, but then again, he might not be relating well with his own family.
The film is simple in its plot, and it mere shows the comparison. BUt it was effective, since it was a movie that can be enjoyed, and deserves to be watched.
It is also effective to note about the flow of the story, using documentary drama as its treatment in the start, but as the film went through, it shows how the "docu drama" was made, showing the reenactments of scenes, how media tries to make a story out of the murder, and how the media brings together key loved ones in order to build this story.
******
drama ko: I went to this another job interview who are in need of "workers" for their office. I tried my luck, though I was still having second thoughts of leaving my current work. But I was merely trying my luck, if I get the part good, but if not, well, maybe it's not my time yet. If this has happened some time ago, I might have wallowed on, ehem..emoness, but then again, why bother on dwelling on that. If I don't get the part, that means I still have a lot of things to learn...and well, lots of experience and times to cherish with the current people I'm dealing with, the work I have, and in helping people I need to help...(naks!, o sha, tama na!)
******
Matapos ang isa na namang araw sa sakahan, nagawa ko rin ang dapat kong gawin. Sana ngayon, maachieve ko na ang monthly goal. O kung hindi man, mas mataas o mas okay kesa sa lagpak kong performance last month.
*******
Anyway, over lunch, was able to be in the presence of some friends I have been ignoring for some time. Wala lang, pagod na kasi akong uminom o gumala maghapon after work. Just now that I had spent some time with them, and catch up with sharing jokes with one another. Bitter kasi ako recenlty. BUt I guess, it's fading now, and I'm beginning to appreciate them once again.
Siguro nga,there just comes a time when you get tired of dealing with the same people you have been dealing with for such a long time.
Yun lang.
********
I was clumsy this afternoon. I was with a new friend whom I just met at the job interview. Turned out we had some common friends back in college, and we sort of talked about some blah, blah, blahs. I got engrossed with the conversation that I forgot to get down my station. Instead of "alighting" the MRT at Shaw, sa Cubao nako bumaba. Worst, I forgot that there was a one peso fare difference between staions. Again, I was caught in our talking that I forgot to pay for the additional fare, hayun, di ako nakalabas sa station.
Bad trip. Clumsy me. Wala ako sa sarili. Grrr,
Just had a lot of things in mind. Hmmph, bahala na , i'll get through...:-)
The story was sort of a docu-drama , tackling the life of a certain person named Jay. A homosexual, wose mysterious death was the topic of a TV show, entitled "The Dearly Departed" (which is sort of a crossbreed of SOCO, and Wish ko Lang...hmm...goodluck on imagining or thinking about the comparison)
The team which documented on the drama, who was named Jay as well, portrayed by actor Baron Geisler interviewed the family and loved ones of the victim. It documented the drama and impact of his death to them.
It showed how media manipulates the drama, in order to show the emotion, and thus appeal to the emotions of its viewers.
What's funny to note is how they show this drama, in an exaggerated, but well..funny manner. Jay asks a family member to reenact a scene or to deliberately mourn over or wail when they see "Jay's" body. The family member will then act, even check herself in the mirror, re-touch, and even say, "ok, take na"
The use of the name "Jay" in the story shows the comparison between the two persons with different personalities, but share the same name. Both are homosexuals. But "Jay" who was murdered by another person was dearly loved by his family and even say he hasn't done anything wrong, or that he was a nice, reserved type of gay. On the other hand, "JAy", the one who documented his death knew he had persoanl issues to resolve. He may be fulfilled career-wise and in financial terms, but then again, he might not be relating well with his own family.
The film is simple in its plot, and it mere shows the comparison. BUt it was effective, since it was a movie that can be enjoyed, and deserves to be watched.
It is also effective to note about the flow of the story, using documentary drama as its treatment in the start, but as the film went through, it shows how the "docu drama" was made, showing the reenactments of scenes, how media tries to make a story out of the murder, and how the media brings together key loved ones in order to build this story.
******
drama ko: I went to this another job interview who are in need of "workers" for their office. I tried my luck, though I was still having second thoughts of leaving my current work. But I was merely trying my luck, if I get the part good, but if not, well, maybe it's not my time yet. If this has happened some time ago, I might have wallowed on, ehem..emoness, but then again, why bother on dwelling on that. If I don't get the part, that means I still have a lot of things to learn...and well, lots of experience and times to cherish with the current people I'm dealing with, the work I have, and in helping people I need to help...(naks!, o sha, tama na!)
******
Matapos ang isa na namang araw sa sakahan, nagawa ko rin ang dapat kong gawin. Sana ngayon, maachieve ko na ang monthly goal. O kung hindi man, mas mataas o mas okay kesa sa lagpak kong performance last month.
*******
Anyway, over lunch, was able to be in the presence of some friends I have been ignoring for some time. Wala lang, pagod na kasi akong uminom o gumala maghapon after work. Just now that I had spent some time with them, and catch up with sharing jokes with one another. Bitter kasi ako recenlty. BUt I guess, it's fading now, and I'm beginning to appreciate them once again.
Siguro nga,there just comes a time when you get tired of dealing with the same people you have been dealing with for such a long time.
Yun lang.
********
I was clumsy this afternoon. I was with a new friend whom I just met at the job interview. Turned out we had some common friends back in college, and we sort of talked about some blah, blah, blahs. I got engrossed with the conversation that I forgot to get down my station. Instead of "alighting" the MRT at Shaw, sa Cubao nako bumaba. Worst, I forgot that there was a one peso fare difference between staions. Again, I was caught in our talking that I forgot to pay for the additional fare, hayun, di ako nakalabas sa station.
Bad trip. Clumsy me. Wala ako sa sarili. Grrr,
Just had a lot of things in mind. Hmmph, bahala na , i'll get through...:-)
Sunday, August 3, 2008
emo na naman...
"There’s nothing wrong
With my door.
It works perfectly fine.
It opens and closes still
But on its own now.
No longer according
to your whims.
The hinges have learned
To say, “Enough!”"
from Sherma Benosa
-Something to relate with. *Sigh!*
Haaay, looks like the rain triggers me to be emotional once again...keri lang....
Saturday, August 2, 2008
naaliw sa singkit
Recently heard and watched Richard Poon on TV as he rendered "Sway with me", popularized by yet another jazz-crooner, Michael Buble.
It was just this afternoon that I was able to really appreciate his music, and well, his celeb-package, which I found really different.
Also, it was just now that I was able to blog about him, so, anyway, bear with me as I give my own take about this artist.
"Fresh, old-school", that's how he best describes his music. He may swoon you over with his romantic voice and his own renditions of timeless romantic classics from Harry Connick, Frank Sinatra and Rod Stewart, but wait, there's more! He can give those pop songs a new, jazzy twist!
And this is what's amazing with his music. He gives out this, cool, fresh vibe versions, may it be one gotten from the classics, or even from the recent, pop ones usually heard over your favorite pop radio stations!
Hear his versions of "Way Back into love", "umbrella", and yes, even "Irreplaceable" by Beyonce.
His not all-out classic, all-out pop image makes him likable. It only shows his flexibility and his adaptability to any kind of music genre.
It just seems funny, thinking...what if he gives out a version of "Low" by Flo-Rida?
Wala lng, nakakatawa lang...hahaha!
I like this shot...
Aside from having that voice that sweeps women, and well, even men off their feet, is his good, "baby-boy", clean-look, add to that his being chinito, which is an "uso" look" nowadays, with the popularity of yellow-skinned, chinky-eyed men seen on korean and japanese telenovelas.
It was just this afternoon that I was able to really appreciate his music, and well, his celeb-package, which I found really different.
Also, it was just now that I was able to blog about him, so, anyway, bear with me as I give my own take about this artist.
"Fresh, old-school", that's how he best describes his music. He may swoon you over with his romantic voice and his own renditions of timeless romantic classics from Harry Connick, Frank Sinatra and Rod Stewart, but wait, there's more! He can give those pop songs a new, jazzy twist!
And this is what's amazing with his music. He gives out this, cool, fresh vibe versions, may it be one gotten from the classics, or even from the recent, pop ones usually heard over your favorite pop radio stations!
Hear his versions of "Way Back into love", "umbrella", and yes, even "Irreplaceable" by Beyonce.
His not all-out classic, all-out pop image makes him likable. It only shows his flexibility and his adaptability to any kind of music genre.
It just seems funny, thinking...what if he gives out a version of "Low" by Flo-Rida?
Wala lng, nakakatawa lang...hahaha!
I like this shot...Aside from having that voice that sweeps women, and well, even men off their feet, is his good, "baby-boy", clean-look, add to that his being chinito, which is an "uso" look" nowadays, with the popularity of yellow-skinned, chinky-eyed men seen on korean and japanese telenovelas.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Movie day galore
Since today 's the start of my rest day period, I decided to watch movies. It's some form of stress reliever, really. An escape from reality, yes, and get away from..nakakalurlur na pipol, as how my sister will put it to describe those "blah" moments that happen in one's life. Anyway, it was fun, being in the company of my two "girlfriends", (wow, sounds so teeny bopper!)with whom I spend most of the time laughing about the corniest, stupidest, but funny things which make you feel light. Because we all deserve those happy moments!!!
It was raining this afternoon, that's why we decided to pass the time at the mall before going home.
Corny as it may seem (but fun and feel-good naman), we watched A Very Special Love which starred John Lloyd Cruz and Sarah Geronimo.
Of course, JOhn Lloyd was still at his best, being the most sought-after, drop -dead, makalaglag panting kagwapuhan ni John Lloyd. It never failed to make all those girls feel kilig the whole movie time. Him, being JOhn Lloyd made the movie "watchable". Nadala niya ang movie!
Sarah Geronimo meanwhile, just proved how bungisngisin and perky she was on the film. Add to that, her vibrance and naivete, which is appreciative, whacky and fresh. This I think is a great job for the teen pop princess (asus, very press release ang dating!)
Sarah's appeal is just so "masa" or..hmm..pardon the term, "bakya", but I think it's effective. She showed vibrance, which gave her that inner glow in the movie. Personally, I think she's a Juday in the making. ANd for her to be paired with a really gorgeous, sleek and sassy kind of John Lloyd in the movie, created a balance.
And of course, it showed that fantasy wherein even a plain-Jane can snag a hot-guy. Of course, it's just something to make you feel good. In reality...hmm..sometimes it happen, sometimes it doesn't. How it does happen...well I don't know as well...
Technically speaking, the movie was feel-good, really kilig to the bones. After exiting those moviehouses you'll end up gushing for John Lloyd even more.
It's a proven thing that movies which got its title from romantic songs are a staple that entice people to watch. It's for the lovelorns, the people who practically wish to feel those kind of romances for themselves. And I think it's not a bad thing. It's very hopeful.
At shempre, wag nang magpaka plastic, si John Lloyd yun!
By the end of the movie, you'll find yourself singing its soundtrack. Of course, who doesn't anyway. It's really catchy. It fits (in a very normal, usual kind of way!)
But then again, it's John Lloyd!
Malayang Manood ng Cinemalaya
I met with my sisters around 6 in the evening to watch a Cinemalaya movie (It's actually sort of an annual thing for me to watch these festivals), entitled My Fake American Accent.
I can perfectly relate with the topic..ahemm..too much info. Anyway, it showed the call center lifestyle. It explained the call center lifestyle. But it sort of seem like an avp for, say a lecture, or a backgrounder. It was catchy at the start, but it was, well, sorry for the term disappointing as the movie went through its end. It showed the story of individual call center agents and how this job has formed their lifestyle, their thinking, and their relationship.
Honestly speaking, the movie wasn't able to address the core issues, or even situations that happen in a call center, or about the call center lifestyle. Or maybe, the moviemakers didn't really try to imply or address any issue or concern, and it simply wanted to show the lifestyle.
Parts of it showed superficiality and featurized, but still, it was a fresh topic for a movie. It showed a story which attracted the audience and made them laugh. The punches , or what we call in filipino, mga hirit are witty, sarcastic and classic at the same time.
But eventhough the movie wasn't what I expected for it to be, still I appreciate it. It showed how young urban working peeps try to find meaning and purpose in their life, at the same time, enjoy and appreciate whatever experience come along their way.
Post script:
Panalo ang hirit nung isang character sa movie: "Hi ako si Astrid. Dating field writer, pero sa call center nako ngayon, paano, walang pera sa pagsusulat e!:
(Or maybe it's just me noticing na ganun ang writing career. Meron namang nakakapundar sa pagsusulat e!)
It was raining this afternoon, that's why we decided to pass the time at the mall before going home.
Corny as it may seem (but fun and feel-good naman), we watched A Very Special Love which starred John Lloyd Cruz and Sarah Geronimo.
Of course, JOhn Lloyd was still at his best, being the most sought-after, drop -dead, makalaglag panting kagwapuhan ni John Lloyd. It never failed to make all those girls feel kilig the whole movie time. Him, being JOhn Lloyd made the movie "watchable". Nadala niya ang movie!
Sarah Geronimo meanwhile, just proved how bungisngisin and perky she was on the film. Add to that, her vibrance and naivete, which is appreciative, whacky and fresh. This I think is a great job for the teen pop princess (asus, very press release ang dating!)
Sarah's appeal is just so "masa" or..hmm..pardon the term, "bakya", but I think it's effective. She showed vibrance, which gave her that inner glow in the movie. Personally, I think she's a Juday in the making. ANd for her to be paired with a really gorgeous, sleek and sassy kind of John Lloyd in the movie, created a balance.
And of course, it showed that fantasy wherein even a plain-Jane can snag a hot-guy. Of course, it's just something to make you feel good. In reality...hmm..sometimes it happen, sometimes it doesn't. How it does happen...well I don't know as well...
Technically speaking, the movie was feel-good, really kilig to the bones. After exiting those moviehouses you'll end up gushing for John Lloyd even more.
It's a proven thing that movies which got its title from romantic songs are a staple that entice people to watch. It's for the lovelorns, the people who practically wish to feel those kind of romances for themselves. And I think it's not a bad thing. It's very hopeful.
At shempre, wag nang magpaka plastic, si John Lloyd yun!
By the end of the movie, you'll find yourself singing its soundtrack. Of course, who doesn't anyway. It's really catchy. It fits (in a very normal, usual kind of way!)
But then again, it's John Lloyd!
Malayang Manood ng Cinemalaya
I met with my sisters around 6 in the evening to watch a Cinemalaya movie (It's actually sort of an annual thing for me to watch these festivals), entitled My Fake American Accent.
I can perfectly relate with the topic..ahemm..too much info. Anyway, it showed the call center lifestyle. It explained the call center lifestyle. But it sort of seem like an avp for, say a lecture, or a backgrounder. It was catchy at the start, but it was, well, sorry for the term disappointing as the movie went through its end. It showed the story of individual call center agents and how this job has formed their lifestyle, their thinking, and their relationship.
Honestly speaking, the movie wasn't able to address the core issues, or even situations that happen in a call center, or about the call center lifestyle. Or maybe, the moviemakers didn't really try to imply or address any issue or concern, and it simply wanted to show the lifestyle.
Parts of it showed superficiality and featurized, but still, it was a fresh topic for a movie. It showed a story which attracted the audience and made them laugh. The punches , or what we call in filipino, mga hirit are witty, sarcastic and classic at the same time.
But eventhough the movie wasn't what I expected for it to be, still I appreciate it. It showed how young urban working peeps try to find meaning and purpose in their life, at the same time, enjoy and appreciate whatever experience come along their way.
Post script:
Panalo ang hirit nung isang character sa movie: "Hi ako si Astrid. Dating field writer, pero sa call center nako ngayon, paano, walang pera sa pagsusulat e!:
(Or maybe it's just me noticing na ganun ang writing career. Meron namang nakakapundar sa pagsusulat e!)
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Yey!!!!!
It was like a sudden tap on the back saying I need to get motivated again. Funny how I have incidentally browsed on some blogs to read entries on emo-ness or on being happy. It's like some "force" is telling me to wake up, at hindi ka dapat forever emo...o sha, itigil na ang dapat itigil, at alisin na sa isip ang kung anumang bumabagaga sayo. (Siyet, hanggang sa tagalog, madrama pa din! hahaha!...)
Anyway, I feel happy for a lot of different reasons:
1. I finally arrived on my decision. It's something really personal, but the whole part of it all lands on that one big topic on decision-making.
Yes, true, I may be sacrificing one thing that I love doing and dream of pursuing, but thinking about it, there are other avenues wherein I can still do that while retaining the other situation I am currently into. Who wants to give up a good lifestyle anyway...
2. Me and my friend cooked something up. SOmething worthwhile doing...something fun..something different!
3. Am going to watch a cinemalaya movie tomorrow.
It's something I'm looking forward to.
4. I finished that "article"
.
Yey, another achievement!
5. I'm cooking up for another article am going to write!
Another something to look forward to!
6. Feel motivated again
It seems like the best thing to feel good again is to look forward, and do the things you want to do!
Yey!!!!!!
post script:
thanks to ala and alex
for sharing to us their own pieces on happiness!!!!:-)
Anyway, I feel happy for a lot of different reasons:
1. I finally arrived on my decision. It's something really personal, but the whole part of it all lands on that one big topic on decision-making.
Yes, true, I may be sacrificing one thing that I love doing and dream of pursuing, but thinking about it, there are other avenues wherein I can still do that while retaining the other situation I am currently into. Who wants to give up a good lifestyle anyway...
2. Me and my friend cooked something up. SOmething worthwhile doing...something fun..something different!
3. Am going to watch a cinemalaya movie tomorrow.
It's something I'm looking forward to.
4. I finished that "article"
.
Yey, another achievement!
5. I'm cooking up for another article am going to write!
Another something to look forward to!
6. Feel motivated again
It seems like the best thing to feel good again is to look forward, and do the things you want to do!
Yey!!!!!!
post script:
thanks to ala and alex
for sharing to us their own pieces on happiness!!!!:-)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Nahihilo, nalilito
ano ba, ano ba, ano ba? Nakakalito naman magdesisyon ng mga bagay-bagay. Nakakapraning, nakakainis, nakakaemo. Sino ba naman kasi ang may sabing problemahin ko ito? Simple lang naman e. Dapt gumawa o pumili na ako ng desisyon. Tapos nun, no regrets, no turning back, no more crying over spilled milk. Pero shempre, you have to take a lot of things into consideration--yung pagka emo mo, yung kakayanan mo, yung magiging benefit sayo in the long run. So paano mo nga ba makukuha yung bagay na gusto mo? Hindi ba pwedeng walang i-give up? Pwede naman e, that is kung kakayanin mo. Kung ikaw si Darna, kung ikaw si Hermione na pwedeng gumawa ng potion o magic kung saan ang clone mo ay gagawin yung isang bagay na guto mong gawin, at isang clone o true self mo na sa isa pang bagay. (Yun nga lang, di sila pwedeng magkita, kasi kung ganun, sasabog silang dalawa di ba?)
So ano nga ba? Kailangan nang magdesisyon. At stick to that decision, and stand up for it. Pero ang hirap talaga pag-isipan!
Anyway, lito lang ako kaya ko naisulat ang mga bagay-bagay.....haaaaaay:(
So ano nga ba? Kailangan nang magdesisyon. At stick to that decision, and stand up for it. Pero ang hirap talaga pag-isipan!
Anyway, lito lang ako kaya ko naisulat ang mga bagay-bagay.....haaaaaay:(
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Operation: Get my LIFE back
These are the words that I emphasized on my old-school organizer the other day to indicate the set of changes that I have to begin. After a wave of hurly-burlies and emo attacks, I figured out it's that time wherein I have to straighten things out again.
Sabi ko, I'll adhere to the things I need to adhere, to commit to the things which I need, sabi ko I'll be m: ore responsible this time.
Tapos nun...boom!
HIndi na naman ako pumasok sa ofis..
then...
nakipagchikahan pa ko sa isang taong sinabi ko nang hindi ko na pagi-investan ng time and energy...
But at the end of the day, should I wallow on those things which I wasn't able to do?
Should I continuously blame myself for my shortcomings.
I guess the effects are the true tests of Operation: Get my LIFE back. It's not on how I was able to perform the tasks at hand (though doing it is a big factor) but on how I dwell on the after-effects.
It's on how after falling down, you know wgen to get up and start again.
It's on not looking back on past faults and mistakes, and keep you from doing good things now, or changing things for the better,
It's about looking on past mistakes, but use them as springboards to getting the results you want to happen on these present times.
Ok, it's another emo tack for me. So I guess, I have to end now...
Reality check: Still have an article to write...
need to be efficient once again!....
Sabi ko, I'll adhere to the things I need to adhere, to commit to the things which I need, sabi ko I'll be m: ore responsible this time.
Tapos nun...boom!
HIndi na naman ako pumasok sa ofis..
then...
nakipagchikahan pa ko sa isang taong sinabi ko nang hindi ko na pagi-investan ng time and energy...
But at the end of the day, should I wallow on those things which I wasn't able to do?
Should I continuously blame myself for my shortcomings.
I guess the effects are the true tests of Operation: Get my LIFE back. It's not on how I was able to perform the tasks at hand (though doing it is a big factor) but on how I dwell on the after-effects.
It's on how after falling down, you know wgen to get up and start again.
It's on not looking back on past faults and mistakes, and keep you from doing good things now, or changing things for the better,
It's about looking on past mistakes, but use them as springboards to getting the results you want to happen on these present times.
Ok, it's another emo tack for me. So I guess, I have to end now...
Reality check: Still have an article to write...
need to be efficient once again!....
Friday, July 11, 2008
eiga sai 2008
And so it's that time of the year once again when japanese film enthusiasts rush to the edifices of Shang to watch Eiga Sai 2008. It's that yearly japanese film festival which feature contemporary as well as old jap movies that shows japanese culture and lifestyle. This year, it focuses on the youth--how they love, their experiences, their way of thinking.
I, along with a close friend and two new friends were luckily able to watch its opening last monday. We watched We Shall Overcome Sunday which tackled about the prevailing rift between japanese and koreans. This time, it showed how this situation has come to influence the youth as well-the presence of gang war, rough-necked gangs, fighting and almost killling each other.The movie might have showed violence and brutality, but it as well showed how in this kind of situation, there also blossomed a friendship and love between the two races.
The next day, Joey and I watched the screenings again. This time it was Jap-movie galore which started at 2 in the afternoon. First moVIE was Hanging Garden, which showed the typical Japanese family life. In the movie, the featured family was one which never kept any secret from anyone. Anything is revealed, or simply told to anybody in the family. It showed their openness to one another. They can talk about anything under the sun may it be about sex, love or simple feelings with each other. Or so they think that they never keep any secrets from one another--still there are situations they keep each other from telling, some hidden truth that they never revealed with one another. This tests the family's bond with each other.
There will be some hidden truths that will come out in the open, and dark shadows of the past that will haunt their present lives.
It's remarkable to note about the film's cinematography--the use of "vertigo" shots, wherein the camera is spun on 360 degree angle. It may be an implication of how one character simply wants to perfect a family, just like the perfect form of a circle so to straighten the crookedness of her past, or so that the dark past won't happen again.
Their is also the use of blood, screams and rain, to indicate the darkness of this past, the shrieking scream that finally lets go of all the pain and how the rain washes away all the gore and darkness of it.
The movie got it's title Hanging Garden from that piece of furniture which was hanging at the family's round dinner table, supporting the light bulb and has a garden as its design. That piece is something indicating the family's bond, one that is always left hanging due to life's conflicts, situations and the consequences it bring but tries to keep it steady and together.
Second movie that we were able to watch was Linda Linda Linda which is a feel-good movie about established friendship through music. It showed the lives of four kids who tried to create a band, keep it together and still do the act, amid their conflicts with one osanother. it also showed a friendship which bloomed between a korean who tried to adjust to the japanese school community, and japanese kids which realized how they can pull up a good friendship with each, one that is cherished and will always be remembered.
Third movie, which we found the most interesting one was A Stranger Of Mine. Simply speaking it could have been a short narration of one event, but showed the different perspective and actions of four characters involved in that event. Let me quote a review, as I can't find of exact words to describe how this feel was intellectually created:
a film built on subtlety, intelligence and humanity. While it is not a flashy film by any means it is the sort that just grows and grows and grows as it progreses until, while you are unlikely to point to any particular moment that makes it so, you exit the theater knowing that you've just seen something special.
-NYAFF Report
you can view the full review here
Watching these films, stirs up the "creativity" in me. It inspires me to, one day do something like this, along with good writing and brainstorming, as well as the motivation and belief in oneself to make such things possible.
*****
I felt blessed that I have films like these to watch, along with Joey, my freelance artist-friend with whom I share my rants and dreams with. Good luck to us, and we will do great projects some day!!!
You're almost there my friend!
Friday, July 4, 2008
Yun Lang...
At dahil nakita kitang kasama mo siya, habang naglalakad kami sa galeria nung isang araw, dun ko napagtantong dapat na ngan itigil ang kabaliwan. Pero dahil palagi pa rin tayong magkasama, magkatabi o nagkikita, mahihirapan yata akong iwasan ka.
Wala naman yata talagang dapat magbago dahil magkaibigan na tayo noon pa lang. At hindi naman nagkaaminan o nagkasabihan ng nararamdaman. Pero kung walang magbabago, mahirap lumayo, at kung mahirap lumayo, mayroong hindi magbabago o mawawala.
Pinagtatawanan ko na lang ang lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa akin, dahil wala rin namang mangyayari kung idadaan ko ito sa lungkot, sa galit o sa pag inom.
Ayoko namang sirain ang pagkatao ko dahil lang sa isang pangyayari sa buhay ko.
Dahil malalagpasan ko rin ito, at may ibang tao ring darating...
****
Maulan kasi, kaya ko to nagawa...joke lang ang mga bagay bagay!, hehehe!
Wala naman yata talagang dapat magbago dahil magkaibigan na tayo noon pa lang. At hindi naman nagkaaminan o nagkasabihan ng nararamdaman. Pero kung walang magbabago, mahirap lumayo, at kung mahirap lumayo, mayroong hindi magbabago o mawawala.
Pinagtatawanan ko na lang ang lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa akin, dahil wala rin namang mangyayari kung idadaan ko ito sa lungkot, sa galit o sa pag inom.
Ayoko namang sirain ang pagkatao ko dahil lang sa isang pangyayari sa buhay ko.
Dahil malalagpasan ko rin ito, at may ibang tao ring darating...
****
Maulan kasi, kaya ko to nagawa...joke lang ang mga bagay bagay!, hehehe!
change, change, change
Change dares you to be different. It's a signal for you to try unknown borders, or do things you hAVen't been doing for a while.
Change is a break from the things you have been doing over and over most of the time. It creates a variety from your routine and patterned lifestyle.
Yes, change is a good thing. And change saves you from your everyday boredom and current burn out.
Hello, change.
Change is a break from the things you have been doing over and over most of the time. It creates a variety from your routine and patterned lifestyle.
Yes, change is a good thing. And change saves you from your everyday boredom and current burn out.
Hello, change.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
that time of the year
This is the time of the year wherein you feel trapped in this world of negativity and passivity You feel as if you're stuck in this world that is non-evolving, non-changing. You start to wonder when you're going to have that big break, when you'll feel successful and free again, or simply feel good about yourself and the things that you do
This time, is a hodgepodge of problems and issues. You might not be direclty involved, or .somehow/artly involved, and you seem affected because you are part of that environment. No matter how hard you try to appease two parties, or even try to understand both points, you just end up feeling like the unopinionated one, the person with whom both parties talk to about the things which are happening, the listening ear, the middle ground.
It's not like you're the wrong one, you're just everybody's friend, and somehow you understand both sides. And you can't take a stand, because...you are everybody's friend.
And now you end up being the passive one.
I don't know if things are already worse, or if everything is a big deal. I try to stay on the sidelines, but still, i feel trapped in it.
****
I am just the mere viewer on the sidebenches waiting as the whole team, gang up, play, and resolve their matters.
*****
And now, I feel like leaving the game. It's been too tiring watching and observing them all. And it's going into your head. It's too much stress, there's just so much battle around.
****
Sigh. Did I say it's that time of the year?
***
Emo attack!
***
Current song in my head: Must Get Out. Maroon 5
This time, is a hodgepodge of problems and issues. You might not be direclty involved, or .somehow/artly involved, and you seem affected because you are part of that environment. No matter how hard you try to appease two parties, or even try to understand both points, you just end up feeling like the unopinionated one, the person with whom both parties talk to about the things which are happening, the listening ear, the middle ground.
It's not like you're the wrong one, you're just everybody's friend, and somehow you understand both sides. And you can't take a stand, because...you are everybody's friend.
And now you end up being the passive one.
I don't know if things are already worse, or if everything is a big deal. I try to stay on the sidelines, but still, i feel trapped in it.
****
I am just the mere viewer on the sidebenches waiting as the whole team, gang up, play, and resolve their matters.
*****
And now, I feel like leaving the game. It's been too tiring watching and observing them all. And it's going into your head. It's too much stress, there's just so much battle around.
****
Sigh. Did I say it's that time of the year?
***
Emo attack!
***
Current song in my head: Must Get Out. Maroon 5
Sunday, June 29, 2008
lessons 2
1. You write for the audience, not for the critiques, so don't get paranoid about them and feel as if you write badly.
2. The problem with us pinoys is that we are trained for manual/lablor work, and for getting orders from people. That's why we don't have a good sense of self.
3. When asking for advice, it's best to ask one from close friends who are not directly involved in the situation ou're at. Atleast, there is less bias.
4. Although how much advice is given to you, it' s still your own decision if you're going to follow those advice, or do your own thing.
5. You get a bigger picture of the situation you're at when you ask the perception/impression from friends about you current dilemma.
6. The very best friends you'll come to trust as you grow old will be your friends that you have from the past, say your high school or college friends.
7. It's good to laugh. It takes away your worries, and make a situation feel light.
8. Take joy in the company you currently have.
9. It's good to have a lot of dreams, but be realistic and focus/work on the ones you have
10. Variety is good. You need to feel different each day. There always must be something new.
2. The problem with us pinoys is that we are trained for manual/lablor work, and for getting orders from people. That's why we don't have a good sense of self.
3. When asking for advice, it's best to ask one from close friends who are not directly involved in the situation ou're at. Atleast, there is less bias.
4. Although how much advice is given to you, it' s still your own decision if you're going to follow those advice, or do your own thing.
5. You get a bigger picture of the situation you're at when you ask the perception/impression from friends about you current dilemma.
6. The very best friends you'll come to trust as you grow old will be your friends that you have from the past, say your high school or college friends.
7. It's good to laugh. It takes away your worries, and make a situation feel light.
8. Take joy in the company you currently have.
9. It's good to have a lot of dreams, but be realistic and focus/work on the ones you have
10. Variety is good. You need to feel different each day. There always must be something new.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Lessons and experiences on love
Some may find this a mushy post, something "emo" and too revealing, as if trying to athc attention and all.
On usual times, I might have kept mum about it and play safe, not to blurt my opinions out in public so as not to stir new issues and all. BUt this time, I would like to speak out and narrate this certain experience, which has been bothering me for the moment.
NOte, (hindi sa paghuhugas kamay)these may not be direct experiences by the author but mere observAtion of her surroundings..
Enter song of Rihanna entitled unfaithful....
"story of my life, searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong really loves my company
He's more than a man, and this is more than love
the reason why the sky is blue
but clouds are rolling in, because i'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true..."
People have been hooking up with people, just to cherish that "little moment they have with each other."
Take note, a little fling with another while trapped on a diffeent place, away from your true or other love, and you hook up with another person because you feel something special to that other person..
It may not seem deadly for other people, but it's unfair...
Scenario 1:
Jenna (*) is attached, or let's say he has a boyfriend. Tommy* is single.
During a get-away, Jenna and Tommy had the opportunity to bond with each other.
While out with friends, it has been revealed that Jenna has this feelings for Tommy.
Jenna has been aggressive enough to let Tommy know about this feelings,
and she has made some "intimate" actions or move to let him know that.
Tommy was trying to push her away,
but who can resist a crying, frustrated girl who asks why she is being pushed away.
As a natural reaction, Tommy gives in to Jenna's intimacy...
Scenario 2:
Bryan* is a married man, and he has led a happy, married life, until this woman, MAria, came into her life. They share the same passion on things--books, hobbies, and even ideAS on life.
This has led them closer.
Maria knows of Bryan's status, but still, she gives in to her feelings and did not keep a distance from her feelings and all.
On one occasion, Bryan and Maria gave in to the call of flesh, they became intimate--slept together, and even showered together.
Scenario 3:
Gary* has a special someone in his life, he has a constant date and all, although he admits that he is technically single.
Siena* is in a relationship.
Gary and Siena are friends, and both admit that they are flirting with each other.
Gary and Siena has grown closer when they had a vacation.
"Just Friends"
THe statement of these times...
I don't know if I should feel bad or feel good because finally you have established this connection or relationship you have with one person. It may seem unfair as to why you should harbor feelings to another person, most especially a friend, when you know that it would be impossible for him to reciprocate the feelings you have.
Yes, you have dated, yet you remained friends after that. You share same passion for some things, or interests, but you know na hANGGAng dun lang yun.
But you can't help falling and falling even more.
And you know that it's something wrong.
Especially when he has somebody whom he considers his "special someone"
You try to keep a distance, but it may seem difficult, because in the first place you are friends. And it may seem some form of bitterness if you just decide to drift away.
It's a one-way, unreciprocated "love" so to speak...
******
I admt, I'm a late bloomer when it comes to this "love" thing, and I guess the "natural confusion" is coming to me now.
It is just a stage, I know.
It will all come to pass.
Let me share a certain SMS message I've got from a friend...
Sometime we wonder
how people can be so insensitive
You show them al your love
yet nothing happens
And how insensitive
can we get too?
We still love them
Even if we knew.....
******
Sorry talaga sa mga tinatamaan. Hindi ko alam kung mababasa nila ito, or what. BUt it's just a mere rambling, a mere observation of things happening. I can't help but to narrate, and I can't help not to observe....
On usual times, I might have kept mum about it and play safe, not to blurt my opinions out in public so as not to stir new issues and all. BUt this time, I would like to speak out and narrate this certain experience, which has been bothering me for the moment.
NOte, (hindi sa paghuhugas kamay)these may not be direct experiences by the author but mere observAtion of her surroundings..
Enter song of Rihanna entitled unfaithful....
"story of my life, searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong really loves my company
He's more than a man, and this is more than love
the reason why the sky is blue
but clouds are rolling in, because i'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true..."
People have been hooking up with people, just to cherish that "little moment they have with each other."
Take note, a little fling with another while trapped on a diffeent place, away from your true or other love, and you hook up with another person because you feel something special to that other person..
It may not seem deadly for other people, but it's unfair...
Scenario 1:
Jenna (*) is attached, or let's say he has a boyfriend. Tommy* is single.
During a get-away, Jenna and Tommy had the opportunity to bond with each other.
While out with friends, it has been revealed that Jenna has this feelings for Tommy.
Jenna has been aggressive enough to let Tommy know about this feelings,
and she has made some "intimate" actions or move to let him know that.
Tommy was trying to push her away,
but who can resist a crying, frustrated girl who asks why she is being pushed away.
As a natural reaction, Tommy gives in to Jenna's intimacy...
Scenario 2:
Bryan* is a married man, and he has led a happy, married life, until this woman, MAria, came into her life. They share the same passion on things--books, hobbies, and even ideAS on life.
This has led them closer.
Maria knows of Bryan's status, but still, she gives in to her feelings and did not keep a distance from her feelings and all.
On one occasion, Bryan and Maria gave in to the call of flesh, they became intimate--slept together, and even showered together.
Scenario 3:
Gary* has a special someone in his life, he has a constant date and all, although he admits that he is technically single.
Siena* is in a relationship.
Gary and Siena are friends, and both admit that they are flirting with each other.
Gary and Siena has grown closer when they had a vacation.
"Just Friends"
THe statement of these times...
I don't know if I should feel bad or feel good because finally you have established this connection or relationship you have with one person. It may seem unfair as to why you should harbor feelings to another person, most especially a friend, when you know that it would be impossible for him to reciprocate the feelings you have.
Yes, you have dated, yet you remained friends after that. You share same passion for some things, or interests, but you know na hANGGAng dun lang yun.
But you can't help falling and falling even more.
And you know that it's something wrong.
Especially when he has somebody whom he considers his "special someone"
You try to keep a distance, but it may seem difficult, because in the first place you are friends. And it may seem some form of bitterness if you just decide to drift away.
It's a one-way, unreciprocated "love" so to speak...
******
I admt, I'm a late bloomer when it comes to this "love" thing, and I guess the "natural confusion" is coming to me now.
It is just a stage, I know.
It will all come to pass.
Let me share a certain SMS message I've got from a friend...
Sometime we wonder
how people can be so insensitive
You show them al your love
yet nothing happens
And how insensitive
can we get too?
We still love them
Even if we knew.....
******
Sorry talaga sa mga tinatamaan. Hindi ko alam kung mababasa nila ito, or what. BUt it's just a mere rambling, a mere observation of things happening. I can't help but to narrate, and I can't help not to observe....
Thursday, June 26, 2008
my photography
Meron na naman akong bagong acct. This time, it's for the pictures. I hope ma update ko sha palagi...
Sample ko lang....
ehehe....
Sample ko lang....
ehehe....Tuesday, June 24, 2008
primitibo
At dahil kay Frank, naranasan naming maging primitibo. Thanks sa de-bateryang radyo, napakinggan namin ang latest tungkol sa bagyong frank. Salamat din sa uling at griller, nakapagluto kami ng pagkain. Ehehe!, ito yung picture nung luma naming griller...
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typhoon frank
Let me blog about something worthwhile...
Typhoon Frank lashed the whole country over the weekend, wrecked a lot of properties, left most streets flooded, created landslides and even left a ferry adrift sea, killing 700 passengers and crew.
Our prayers go out to the victims and families affected by the typhoon...
Typhoon Frank lashed the whole country over the weekend, wrecked a lot of properties, left most streets flooded, created landslides and even left a ferry adrift sea, killing 700 passengers and crew.
Our prayers go out to the victims and families affected by the typhoon...Monday, June 23, 2008
down with the sickness
It's that time of the year once again when I feel down and weak with the sickness. Right now, it's the ear infection and allergies which have been killing my senses. Maybe it's due to the weather since it's already the rainy days and everything is going damp already.
Been in hibernation for the whole week. I went to Galera last thursday, hoping to relax and unwind with my teammates, unfortunately, my ear infection has left me feeling moody, sleepy and weak.
Days after came the typhoon. Luckily, I decided to go home early from Galera, or else I would have been stranded in Galera with this sickness. My teammates got stranded for 5days, and I told them that being so was like being on an episode from the TV's Lost.
Was Able to catch up with my semi-writing for a novel I was trying to make with my officemate/artist, Joey. I was still feeling confused with the whole story sequence and what to write, but practicing will help me achieve something, right?
I've decided to seriously look for a writing job, one that is connected with the course I have graduated in from college.
*****
With Team Pep, for sure they have bonded well. Sa hirap and ginhawa, they have been with each other. I feel a bit envious as I wasn't with them on their Galera adventure, being stranded and all. But who wants to get stranded, most especially when you're feeling down with a sickness.
But I know that eventhough they got stuck, they've enjoyed every minute of it, and I know they took care and looked after each other.
For sure, when I get back, I'll be hearing a lot of stories from their adventure. I'll be left out but I'm happy realizing how they bonded with each other.
I feel a bit guilty for not feeling close with the team leader, as he appears so sweet and mabait, while I'm aloof,indifferent and passive. I feel like I'm bringing the team down, which is not my intention.
But, I'm happy being with the team, and I'm happy to know every bit of their adventure. It just makes me feel sad that if ever there will be an agent/employee transfer, I'll be the first one on the list.
It's okay. If ever that happens, I know that I have enjoyed being with them. Being on a new department will bring a new experience as well--something that needs to happen so that burnout won't kill me further, while I'm looking for a wriiting job. ANd when things are finally on it's place, and I'm ready to leave, I'll be soaring into a new environment--one that I've been dreaming to have, one that fits my interests and enhance my skills.
Been in hibernation for the whole week. I went to Galera last thursday, hoping to relax and unwind with my teammates, unfortunately, my ear infection has left me feeling moody, sleepy and weak.
Days after came the typhoon. Luckily, I decided to go home early from Galera, or else I would have been stranded in Galera with this sickness. My teammates got stranded for 5days, and I told them that being so was like being on an episode from the TV's Lost.
Was Able to catch up with my semi-writing for a novel I was trying to make with my officemate/artist, Joey. I was still feeling confused with the whole story sequence and what to write, but practicing will help me achieve something, right?
I've decided to seriously look for a writing job, one that is connected with the course I have graduated in from college.
*****
With Team Pep, for sure they have bonded well. Sa hirap and ginhawa, they have been with each other. I feel a bit envious as I wasn't with them on their Galera adventure, being stranded and all. But who wants to get stranded, most especially when you're feeling down with a sickness.
But I know that eventhough they got stuck, they've enjoyed every minute of it, and I know they took care and looked after each other.
For sure, when I get back, I'll be hearing a lot of stories from their adventure. I'll be left out but I'm happy realizing how they bonded with each other.
I feel a bit guilty for not feeling close with the team leader, as he appears so sweet and mabait, while I'm aloof,indifferent and passive. I feel like I'm bringing the team down, which is not my intention.
But, I'm happy being with the team, and I'm happy to know every bit of their adventure. It just makes me feel sad that if ever there will be an agent/employee transfer, I'll be the first one on the list.
It's okay. If ever that happens, I know that I have enjoyed being with them. Being on a new department will bring a new experience as well--something that needs to happen so that burnout won't kill me further, while I'm looking for a wriiting job. ANd when things are finally on it's place, and I'm ready to leave, I'll be soaring into a new environment--one that I've been dreaming to have, one that fits my interests and enhance my skills.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
unwell
Just got home from galerA last night. It was my first team building with team pep. I was supposed to have fun, enjoy and all, but this ear infection has got me really weak that I found no joy in doing anything. walang kagana gana.
I have taken a few picutre, thanks to one of my friends, Rox for lending me her cam, and enjoyed making creative shots with her.
I have yet to upload them when they get backfrom galera.
Anyway, our team got stranded in galera, due to the typhoon.
Twas a good thing, I decided to go home early, since my sickness is really killing my mood.
On shore, going home, the waves were really getting thick and high. Grace, one of my officemates was getting scared already.
The boat ride was fun. It was actually my first time for a boat ride. Twas thrilling and scary at the same time, jus thinking that you're on this vast area of water, away from the island.
***
Can't actually wait to post some picutres on multiply. Sana makauwi na sila...ehehe!
I have taken a few picutre, thanks to one of my friends, Rox for lending me her cam, and enjoyed making creative shots with her.
I have yet to upload them when they get backfrom galera.
Anyway, our team got stranded in galera, due to the typhoon.
Twas a good thing, I decided to go home early, since my sickness is really killing my mood.
On shore, going home, the waves were really getting thick and high. Grace, one of my officemates was getting scared already.
The boat ride was fun. It was actually my first time for a boat ride. Twas thrilling and scary at the same time, jus thinking that you're on this vast area of water, away from the island.
***
Can't actually wait to post some picutres on multiply. Sana makauwi na sila...ehehe!
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