that time of the year

This is the time of the year wherein you feel trapped in this world of negativity and passivity You feel as if you're stuck in this world that is non-evolving, non-changing. You start to wonder when you're going to have that big break, when you'll feel successful and free again, or simply feel good about yourself and the things that you do


This time, is a hodgepodge of problems and issues. You might not be direclty involved, or .somehow/artly involved, and you seem affected because you are part of that environment. No matter how hard you try to appease two parties, or even try to understand both points, you just end up feeling like the unopinionated one, the person with whom both parties talk to about the things which are happening, the listening ear, the middle ground.

It's not like you're the wrong one, you're just everybody's friend, and somehow you understand both sides. And you can't take a stand, because...you are everybody's friend.

And now you end up being the passive one.

I don't know if things are already worse, or if everything is a big deal. I try to stay on the sidelines, but still, i feel trapped in it.

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I am just the mere viewer on the sidebenches waiting as the whole team, gang up, play, and resolve their matters.

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And now, I feel like leaving the game. It's been too tiring watching and observing them all. And it's going into your head. It's too much stress, there's just so much battle around.

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Sigh. Did I say it's that time of the year?

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Emo attack!

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Current song in my head: Must Get Out. Maroon 5