the daily grind

Remembering the first time I got into the writing career, I felt so psyched, like I'm on top of the world. I felt that eventually, and slowly, I am getting what I've been praying for such a long time. However, the more I get into the flow of everyday work in the office, I begin to feel the difficulites--not only of those times when I find it really hard to prcoess and get my thoughts in logical order and write, but to relate with people, to stand out, feel worthy, and feel that I am able to contribute something and not just a mere robot employee, doing only the assigned tasks, or a salingpusa who still has a lot of things to learn, or whose menial tasks are given to.

A lot of times, my strength gets depleted. And at the end of the day, instead of feeling successful, I feel that I'm not doing enough. I wanted to be a woman of action, but I am limited to the things I'm grasping to learn.


I just do pray that I surpass all these things, because, really, I'm just starting, and I have a whole lot of things to learn.

It's just that I miss feeling positive that I can do things, to feel that I am on my ground, and be in charge.

This reminds me of what Chan said a few years ago: "Stand your ground!"

And I do hope I can!

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Dealing with jaded people

I am just new at work. At first, I was really enjoying the tasks given to me, but as time went by, I have encountered people who have been feeling the burn-out. Specifically, there is this one person who I'm forced to see day-by-day, that person* with the far-away, stressed. let-me-out-of-here look zaps the energy of other people.

I know that one shouldn't let these kinds of things get in the way of one's happiness of doing things, but then again, seeing that person everyday doesn't help much.

The person* continues to be a major de-motivator.

I don't blame that person for already feeling burned-out, but as a message: at least find the little strength to inspire people around you--to while away the time, why not train people, why not savor the last moments with the people around you.

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Incidentally this post co-incides with today's celebration of Labor day. Do pray that for all of us working people, may we find the strength to find enjoyment in what we do, feel inspired that we are able to contribute or skills to society.

*The author refuses to name the person being mentioned here*

Enjoying life's simplicity

There are times when we think of wanting to live a grandiose, fabulous lifestyle, where schedules are jampacked with various functions, where we think of improving our social status, of wanting to feel on top of things. We think of posh, rich lifestyles where we visualize ourselves to be worry-free of spending, where acquiring material things will be easy.

But then, at times, its nice to take pleasure in the simplicity of things, of feeling content of what we have--our family, our nice little homes, the kind of entertainment that we can easily afford, like catching up on movies, and tv shows that we git behing with, catching up on the latest "usapan" with our families, wandering and taking a walk within the neighborhood or one's backyard, playing with our pets which we haven't tended with for the most times (maybe due to our busy schedules, and usual tiresome days), and listening to some old stacks of cds, or song collections we haven't played for a while.

It's nice to wander an wonder upon the things within reach. It sort of gives a contented, worry-free vibe. These simple things prevent you from feeling anxious, or thinking about the things we need to acquire.

There is a relaxing feeling in reveling in the simple things in life.

The holy week has given me this time to reflect, and to enjoy in the simplicity of things. For two days, i resisted the urge to think about life's complexities, or rather prevent myself from the usual, everyday worries, and the result was indeed relaxing.

Times like this is sort of a recharging state, a time to reflect on the things we have accomplished, to feel content in the things we have acquired over time.

This is bliss.

Hope you guys enjoyed your holy week as well:) Happy easter everyone!:)