lessons 2

1. You write for the audience, not for the critiques, so don't get paranoid about them and feel as if you write badly.

2. The problem with us pinoys is that we are trained for manual/lablor work, and for getting orders from people. That's why we don't have a good sense of self.

3. When asking for advice, it's best to ask one from close friends who are not directly involved in the situation ou're at. Atleast, there is less bias.

4. Although how much advice is given to you, it' s still your own decision if you're going to follow those advice, or do your own thing.

5. You get a bigger picture of the situation you're at when you ask the perception/impression from friends about you current dilemma.

6. The very best friends you'll come to trust as you grow old will be your friends that you have from the past, say your high school or college friends.

7. It's good to laugh. It takes away your worries, and make a situation feel light.

8. Take joy in the company you currently have.

9. It's good to have a lot of dreams, but be realistic and focus/work on the ones you have

10. Variety is good. You need to feel different each day. There always must be something new.

Lessons and experiences on love

Some may find this a mushy post, something "emo" and too revealing, as if trying to athc attention and all.

On usual times, I might have kept mum about it and play safe, not to blurt my opinions out in public so as not to stir new issues and all. BUt this time, I would like to speak out and narrate this certain experience, which has been bothering me for the moment.

NOte, (hindi sa paghuhugas kamay)these may not be direct experiences by the author but mere observAtion of her surroundings..

Enter song of Rihanna entitled unfaithful....

"story of my life, searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong really loves my company

He's more than a man, and this is more than love
the reason why the sky is blue
but clouds are rolling in, because i'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true..."

People have been hooking up with people, just to cherish that "little moment they have with each other."

Take note, a little fling with another while trapped on a diffeent place, away from your true or other love, and you hook up with another person because you feel something special to that other person..

It may not seem deadly for other people, but it's unfair...

Scenario 1:

Jenna (*) is attached, or let's say he has a boyfriend. Tommy* is single.
During a get-away, Jenna and Tommy had the opportunity to bond with each other.
While out with friends, it has been revealed that Jenna has this feelings for Tommy.
Jenna has been aggressive enough to let Tommy know about this feelings,
and she has made some "intimate" actions or move to let him know that.
Tommy was trying to push her away,
but who can resist a crying, frustrated girl who asks why she is being pushed away.
As a natural reaction, Tommy gives in to Jenna's intimacy...


Scenario 2:

Bryan* is a married man, and he has led a happy, married life, until this woman, MAria, came into her life. They share the same passion on things--books, hobbies, and even ideAS on life.
This has led them closer.
Maria knows of Bryan's status, but still, she gives in to her feelings and did not keep a distance from her feelings and all.
On one occasion, Bryan and Maria gave in to the call of flesh, they became intimate--slept together, and even showered together.

Scenario 3:

Gary* has a special someone in his life, he has a constant date and all, although he admits that he is technically single.
Siena* is in a relationship.
Gary and Siena are friends, and both admit that they are flirting with each other.
Gary and Siena has grown closer when they had a vacation.

"Just Friends"

THe statement of these times...

I don't know if I should feel bad or feel good because finally you have established this connection or relationship you have with one person. It may seem unfair as to why you should harbor feelings to another person, most especially a friend, when you know that it would be impossible for him to reciprocate the feelings you have.

Yes, you have dated, yet you remained friends after that. You share same passion for some things, or interests, but you know na hANGGAng dun lang yun.

But you can't help falling and falling even more.

And you know that it's something wrong.

Especially when he has somebody whom he considers his "special someone"

You try to keep a distance, but it may seem difficult, because in the first place you are friends. And it may seem some form of bitterness if you just decide to drift away.

It's a one-way, unreciprocated "love" so to speak...

******

I admt, I'm a late bloomer when it comes to this "love" thing, and I guess the "natural confusion" is coming to me now.

It is just a stage, I know.

It will all come to pass.

Let me share a certain SMS message I've got from a friend...

Sometime we wonder
how people can be so insensitive

You show them al your love
yet nothing happens

And how insensitive
can we get too?
We still love them
Even if we knew.....

******


Sorry talaga sa mga tinatamaan. Hindi ko alam kung mababasa nila ito, or what. BUt it's just a mere rambling, a mere observation of things happening. I can't help but to narrate, and I can't help not to observe....

my photography

Meron na naman akong bagong acct. This time, it's for the pictures. I hope ma update ko sha palagi...


Sample ko lang....



ehehe....

primitibo

At dahil kay Frank, naranasan naming maging primitibo. Thanks sa de-bateryang radyo, napakinggan namin ang latest tungkol sa bagyong frank. Salamat din sa uling at griller, nakapagluto kami ng pagkain. Ehehe!, ito yung picture nung luma naming griller...

typhoon frank

Let me blog about something worthwhile...

Typhoon Frank lashed the whole country over the weekend, wrecked a lot of properties, left most streets flooded, created landslides and even left a ferry adrift sea, killing 700 passengers and crew.




Our prayers go out to the victims and families affected by the typhoon...

down with the sickness

It's that time of the year once again when I feel down and weak with the sickness. Right now, it's the ear infection and allergies which have been killing my senses. Maybe it's due to the weather since it's already the rainy days and everything is going damp already.

Been in hibernation for the whole week. I went to Galera last thursday, hoping to relax and unwind with my teammates, unfortunately, my ear infection has left me feeling moody, sleepy and weak.

Days after came the typhoon. Luckily, I decided to go home early from Galera, or else I would have been stranded in Galera with this sickness. My teammates got stranded for 5days, and I told them that being so was like being on an episode from the TV's Lost.

Was Able to catch up with my semi-writing for a novel I was trying to make with my officemate/artist, Joey. I was still feeling confused with the whole story sequence and what to write, but practicing will help me achieve something, right?

I've decided to seriously look for a writing job, one that is connected with the course I have graduated in from college.


*****

With Team Pep, for sure they have bonded well. Sa hirap and ginhawa, they have been with each other. I feel a bit envious as I wasn't with them on their Galera adventure, being stranded and all. But who wants to get stranded, most especially when you're feeling down with a sickness.

But I know that eventhough they got stuck, they've enjoyed every minute of it, and I know they took care and looked after each other.

For sure, when I get back, I'll be hearing a lot of stories from their adventure. I'll be left out but I'm happy realizing how they bonded with each other.

I feel a bit guilty for not feeling close with the team leader, as he appears so sweet and mabait, while I'm aloof,indifferent and passive. I feel like I'm bringing the team down, which is not my intention.

But, I'm happy being with the team, and I'm happy to know every bit of their adventure. It just makes me feel sad that if ever there will be an agent/employee transfer, I'll be the first one on the list.

It's okay. If ever that happens, I know that I have enjoyed being with them. Being on a new department will bring a new experience as well--something that needs to happen so that burnout won't kill me further, while I'm looking for a wriiting job. ANd when things are finally on it's place, and I'm ready to leave, I'll be soaring into a new environment--one that I've been dreaming to have, one that fits my interests and enhance my skills.

unwell

Just got home from galerA last night. It was my first team building with team pep. I was supposed to have fun, enjoy and all, but this ear infection has got me really weak that I found no joy in doing anything. walang kagana gana.

I have taken a few picutre, thanks to one of my friends, Rox for lending me her cam, and enjoyed making creative shots with her.

I have yet to upload them when they get backfrom galera.

Anyway, our team got stranded in galera, due to the typhoon.

Twas a good thing, I decided to go home early, since my sickness is really killing my mood.

On shore, going home, the waves were really getting thick and high. Grace, one of my officemates was getting scared already.

The boat ride was fun. It was actually my first time for a boat ride. Twas thrilling and scary at the same time, jus thinking that you're on this vast area of water, away from the island.

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Can't actually wait to post some picutres on multiply. Sana makauwi na sila...ehehe!

hibernation

This is a re-post from my multiply blog...


I have been writing, but I know I'm not good enough. After two years of real hibernation and taking a career path totally different and steroetyped by a lot of people, I still am trying to write. It has been an outlet, of letting my voice heard out, if not known or read by a lot of people, but at least something to lay down my thoughts, my ramblings. Anyway, the net is not only limited to "good" or "best" writers out there. It's a free-for-all thing.

Breakdown. I guess, not to crying but a breakdown that shuts me from people, creating a "distance". An aloofness and no-care attitude, at times viewed as naivete.

People around me may be talking of issues, of telling there opinions on what is happening and what makes haywires. Criticisms abound. BUt me, I prefer to dwell on my own thinking, not minding of them, simploy lost on my own world while reading a book, or sleeping or getting away.

I prefer not to join in on criticizing, or of not giving my own opinion. I stay friendly, joke around, tell about less troubling things like where to buy cheap Les Port Sac bag..

Due to this, I "think" I'm branded as the walang pakialam girl. The girl who can be left behind and kahit na mawala ay hindi mapapansin. Low-profiled and all.


But I'm tired of being the naive girl. It's as if I don't have a good head above me. As if my opinions are too trivial, it cannot be used for anything.

Or maybe, I'm just getting paranoid.


Problema, Problema, Problema

I told almost everyone close to me of the things I'm feeling right now, and what is happening to me.

I'm bothered, and that blocks me from being efficient, or trying to be efficient.

I guess I'm going to be like this for the next three months, until I've figured out what I want to do...or rather

when I figured out how to stay focused on the things I want to do.

It's too much hibernation.

And yes, It has been deteriorating my brain.

Kakahiya

Yes, I know my previous post was full of grammatically-incorrect sentences. As if I haven't been though of subject-verb agreement, and that I missed out on coherence and all...

I have been missing out on doing a good composition for the past two years.

And yes, I'm a bad writer.