This is a re-post from my multiply blog...
I have been writing, but I know I'm not good enough. After two years of real hibernation and taking a career path totally different and steroetyped by a lot of people, I still am trying to write. It has been an outlet, of letting my voice heard out, if not known or read by a lot of people, but at least something to lay down my thoughts, my ramblings. Anyway, the net is not only limited to "good" or "best" writers out there. It's a free-for-all thing.
Breakdown. I guess, not to crying but a breakdown that shuts me from people, creating a "distance". An aloofness and no-care attitude, at times viewed as naivete.
People around me may be talking of issues, of telling there opinions on what is happening and what makes haywires. Criticisms abound. BUt me, I prefer to dwell on my own thinking, not minding of them, simploy lost on my own world while reading a book, or sleeping or getting away.
I prefer not to join in on criticizing, or of not giving my own opinion. I stay friendly, joke around, tell about less troubling things like where to buy cheap Les Port Sac bag..
Due to this, I "think" I'm branded as the walang pakialam girl. The girl who can be left behind and kahit na mawala ay hindi mapapansin. Low-profiled and all.
But I'm tired of being the naive girl. It's as if I don't have a good head above me. As if my opinions are too trivial, it cannot be used for anything.
Or maybe, I'm just getting paranoid.
Problema, Problema, Problema
I told almost everyone close to me of the things I'm feeling right now, and what is happening to me.
I'm bothered, and that blocks me from being efficient, or trying to be efficient.
I guess I'm going to be like this for the next three months, until I've figured out what I want to do...or rather
when I figured out how to stay focused on the things I want to do.
It's too much hibernation.
And yes, It has been deteriorating my brain.
Kakahiya
Yes, I know my previous post was full of grammatically-incorrect sentences. As if I haven't been though of subject-verb agreement, and that I missed out on coherence and all...
I have been missing out on doing a good composition for the past two years.
And yes, I'm a bad writer.
I have been writing, but I know I'm not good enough. After two years of real hibernation and taking a career path totally different and steroetyped by a lot of people, I still am trying to write. It has been an outlet, of letting my voice heard out, if not known or read by a lot of people, but at least something to lay down my thoughts, my ramblings. Anyway, the net is not only limited to "good" or "best" writers out there. It's a free-for-all thing.
Breakdown. I guess, not to crying but a breakdown that shuts me from people, creating a "distance". An aloofness and no-care attitude, at times viewed as naivete.
People around me may be talking of issues, of telling there opinions on what is happening and what makes haywires. Criticisms abound. BUt me, I prefer to dwell on my own thinking, not minding of them, simploy lost on my own world while reading a book, or sleeping or getting away.
I prefer not to join in on criticizing, or of not giving my own opinion. I stay friendly, joke around, tell about less troubling things like where to buy cheap Les Port Sac bag..
Due to this, I "think" I'm branded as the walang pakialam girl. The girl who can be left behind and kahit na mawala ay hindi mapapansin. Low-profiled and all.
But I'm tired of being the naive girl. It's as if I don't have a good head above me. As if my opinions are too trivial, it cannot be used for anything.
Or maybe, I'm just getting paranoid.
Problema, Problema, Problema
I told almost everyone close to me of the things I'm feeling right now, and what is happening to me.
I'm bothered, and that blocks me from being efficient, or trying to be efficient.
I guess I'm going to be like this for the next three months, until I've figured out what I want to do...or rather
when I figured out how to stay focused on the things I want to do.
It's too much hibernation.
And yes, It has been deteriorating my brain.
Kakahiya
Yes, I know my previous post was full of grammatically-incorrect sentences. As if I haven't been though of subject-verb agreement, and that I missed out on coherence and all...
I have been missing out on doing a good composition for the past two years.
And yes, I'm a bad writer.
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