"Fresh start, new beginnings" this is one of the messages relayed by Father Jerry Orbos during this early morning easter vigil. These were the very words that somehow strike me, and at that moment made me think positively about the coming day. Sure, I'm undergoing one of those yet again sad, anxious, and lowest moments, but then, I am reminded that there is still another great day ahead.
"One good day coming up" says a coffee commercial. And again, as Fr. Jerry said, "it's just an overnight thing"
For easy optimists and to those who aren't much into argumenting, or dissecting the very truth of things, believing at these small adages uplifts their soul. Simply, they are able to take in these "foods for the soul". And I guess I am one of them. In a way, I take this as one of my assets. Though others find me really gullible or "mababaw", I think, cheering up at these positive thoughts makes you enjoy the simplicity of things. It makes you appreciate the early morning sunshine, the smile of encountered strangers while you're out jogging on an early morning or afternoon, or the crackling laughter of your parents and siblings. These things give an optimist a certain security, that eventhough "the sky is falling", tomorrow or the coming moments will bring you something memorable or positive.
As I have said, the past days for me had been a blur of gray clouds. I have been avoiding conversing, meeting, or asking the help of some friends, since it makes me think I'm being helpless. But now, I realized that brushing them away won't do me ANY good, that my isolation will just make me more aloof and indifferent. And I do not want to grow like that. Sure, I exude an air of mystery, but still, I don't want to brush people away. I miss simply sharing a laugh or two with them, I miss the simple text conversations--of petty problems or concerns, and joking about them.
Right now, I would like to thank a certain friend for visiting me during this another low moment in my life. It makes me realize that I still matter to some people, or even if I grow jaded, something or someone will appear to make you realize that you are saved from being sad and solitary, or even left behind.
This made me realize I still need people, and that it doesn't harm to ask for their help or their presence, most especially at times when you just want someone to be there.
I thank the Lord for this new day, and for the renewed realization. I'm still experiencing some bouts of loneliness, but I do hope it will go away. the process might be slow, but I do hope the necessary people are available, so that I can once again move on, and so that I can get my optimism and air of sunshine back.
Anyway, Happy Easter everyone! As Jesus has risen from death, let this be a reminder that out of the depths of loneliness and despair, the sunshine will still come out and bring back our joy!
