Lessons and experiences on love

Some may find this a mushy post, something "emo" and too revealing, as if trying to athc attention and all.

On usual times, I might have kept mum about it and play safe, not to blurt my opinions out in public so as not to stir new issues and all. BUt this time, I would like to speak out and narrate this certain experience, which has been bothering me for the moment.

NOte, (hindi sa paghuhugas kamay)these may not be direct experiences by the author but mere observAtion of her surroundings..

Enter song of Rihanna entitled unfaithful....

"story of my life, searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong really loves my company

He's more than a man, and this is more than love
the reason why the sky is blue
but clouds are rolling in, because i'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true..."

People have been hooking up with people, just to cherish that "little moment they have with each other."

Take note, a little fling with another while trapped on a diffeent place, away from your true or other love, and you hook up with another person because you feel something special to that other person..

It may not seem deadly for other people, but it's unfair...

Scenario 1:

Jenna (*) is attached, or let's say he has a boyfriend. Tommy* is single.
During a get-away, Jenna and Tommy had the opportunity to bond with each other.
While out with friends, it has been revealed that Jenna has this feelings for Tommy.
Jenna has been aggressive enough to let Tommy know about this feelings,
and she has made some "intimate" actions or move to let him know that.
Tommy was trying to push her away,
but who can resist a crying, frustrated girl who asks why she is being pushed away.
As a natural reaction, Tommy gives in to Jenna's intimacy...


Scenario 2:

Bryan* is a married man, and he has led a happy, married life, until this woman, MAria, came into her life. They share the same passion on things--books, hobbies, and even ideAS on life.
This has led them closer.
Maria knows of Bryan's status, but still, she gives in to her feelings and did not keep a distance from her feelings and all.
On one occasion, Bryan and Maria gave in to the call of flesh, they became intimate--slept together, and even showered together.

Scenario 3:

Gary* has a special someone in his life, he has a constant date and all, although he admits that he is technically single.
Siena* is in a relationship.
Gary and Siena are friends, and both admit that they are flirting with each other.
Gary and Siena has grown closer when they had a vacation.

"Just Friends"

THe statement of these times...

I don't know if I should feel bad or feel good because finally you have established this connection or relationship you have with one person. It may seem unfair as to why you should harbor feelings to another person, most especially a friend, when you know that it would be impossible for him to reciprocate the feelings you have.

Yes, you have dated, yet you remained friends after that. You share same passion for some things, or interests, but you know na hANGGAng dun lang yun.

But you can't help falling and falling even more.

And you know that it's something wrong.

Especially when he has somebody whom he considers his "special someone"

You try to keep a distance, but it may seem difficult, because in the first place you are friends. And it may seem some form of bitterness if you just decide to drift away.

It's a one-way, unreciprocated "love" so to speak...

******

I admt, I'm a late bloomer when it comes to this "love" thing, and I guess the "natural confusion" is coming to me now.

It is just a stage, I know.

It will all come to pass.

Let me share a certain SMS message I've got from a friend...

Sometime we wonder
how people can be so insensitive

You show them al your love
yet nothing happens

And how insensitive
can we get too?
We still love them
Even if we knew.....

******


Sorry talaga sa mga tinatamaan. Hindi ko alam kung mababasa nila ito, or what. BUt it's just a mere rambling, a mere observation of things happening. I can't help but to narrate, and I can't help not to observe....