Remembering the first time I got into the writing career, I felt so psyched, like I'm on top of the world. I felt that eventually, and slowly, I am getting what I've been praying for such a long time. However, the more I get into the flow of everyday work in the office, I begin to feel the difficulites--not only of those times when I find it really hard to prcoess and get my thoughts in logical order and write, but to relate with people, to stand out, feel worthy, and feel that I am able to contribute something and not just a mere robot employee, doing only the assigned tasks, or a salingpusa who still has a lot of things to learn, or whose menial tasks are given to.
A lot of times, my strength gets depleted. And at the end of the day, instead of feeling successful, I feel that I'm not doing enough. I wanted to be a woman of action, but I am limited to the things I'm grasping to learn.
I just do pray that I surpass all these things, because, really, I'm just starting, and I have a whole lot of things to learn.
It's just that I miss feeling positive that I can do things, to feel that I am on my ground, and be in charge.
This reminds me of what Chan said a few years ago: "Stand your ground!"
And I do hope I can!
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Dealing with jaded people
I am just new at work. At first, I was really enjoying the tasks given to me, but as time went by, I have encountered people who have been feeling the burn-out. Specifically, there is this one person who I'm forced to see day-by-day, that person* with the far-away, stressed. let-me-out-of-here look zaps the energy of other people.
I know that one shouldn't let these kinds of things get in the way of one's happiness of doing things, but then again, seeing that person everyday doesn't help much.
The person* continues to be a major de-motivator.
I don't blame that person for already feeling burned-out, but as a message: at least find the little strength to inspire people around you--to while away the time, why not train people, why not savor the last moments with the people around you.
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Incidentally this post co-incides with today's celebration of Labor day. Do pray that for all of us working people, may we find the strength to find enjoyment in what we do, feel inspired that we are able to contribute or skills to society.
*The author refuses to name the person being mentioned here*
2 comments:
hey, i took a super extra long while for me to figure out who nyanya is! :-D
anyway, if there's anybody that should feel salingkitkit that should be me! LOL
and ooh, how true with ms demotivator. i thought she's just like that lang. pero i got over her, so congrats to me! you should get over her, no? just think at the end of the day you don't have to live with her! haha and aalis naman sya soon right? correct me if im wrong hahahaha.
go us! :-)
pssst, dont feel like you're a salingkitkit, you have done a lot of help:-) nag e-emo lng ako nung mga panahong ito...hehe...thinking about it, nobody's a salinpusa in our team since we're all doing a great effort to deliver great work!
yeah am looking forward for that time...you know what i mean:-)
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