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I just had a really hectic week...MOnday til Sunday, twas a workday for me. I just got past the hurdle of telling my boss that I have to change my rest days for this month. I got an alibi, saying that's why I can't come to work, its because I need to attend to my grandma who just arrive frm the states...(bad me, for telling a lie!)

Well, the truth was, I have to go to training for lakbay..:-(

anyway, i have the biggest hope that my boss' not reading this so anyway, here goes...

I don't know if I'll push through with being an outbound facilitator. the work IS demanding. Well, we have to watch out on kids. We are going to be trip facilitators. Not just tour guides, it's something adventurous because it involves hiking, camping, swimming and all those kinds of outdoor adventures. If you look at it, it's really fun, especially if you love adventura and all, but as I've said, it's not all-adventure and fun. As facilitators, aside from enjoyment for travelling, it asks you to multi-tasked: take care of kids, see their safety, educate them and let them experience the fun...

I don't know if I can do it, because...it's too tasky...plus, the safety of almost 50 or so students lie in my hand...they are my responsibility!!!

***sigh***, really big sigh!...

plus, another thing that's bothering me, if I have the time for other activities, why can't I find them to do the thing I love most-writing.

Well, I'm not going to go back with my rants on writing, but it just dawned on me, why can't I just devote my spare time on going part time for a writing job?

Well, here's my answer (and I just realized it just now)

I am not good on just sitting down and write. I have to do something else., before the writing inspiration or "gana" comes to me.

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Waiting for inspiration is not actually a vaild reason, but then...

maybe I'm doing this because I want to do a lot of things. I don't want to be confined into doing just one thing, good at just one area.

Laida, one of my co-trainee at lakbay just told me that it's actually good that I'm doing a lot of things, andjust because I'm a journ grad doesn't mean I have to be confined in writing per se. It's actually part of me. As a writer, I have to be involved in a lot of stuff...see the background of different things. It makes you a jack of all trades, knowing and doing a lot of things, helps you to have a feel og what different things/activites make a person. In writing, it helps you to be credible, because in the first place, you understand the feeling of undergoing a lot of different things and situations....