When lightning strikes

Some time ago, two friends had a conversation about their lives, their dreams, their attitudes toward things, how they perceive people coming into their lives and about relationships.

Friend 1: Siguro the reason why I'm not capable of having a long term relationship is because, I can handle myself, my moods alone. Sanay akong mag-isa. Ako kasi, when somebody gives me attention, I feel really elated, and I gain ground. It's a good thing, although, I hate the idea of gaining that ground because you know there is a certain person who stands beside you. What if that person leaves you? E di you'll fall to the ground, di ka na magiging stable. Before you go into a relationship, kailangan stable na paninidigan mo sa sarili mo. It's one of the factors that will help a relationship grow, and help you grow individually as a person. If you feel unstable or uncomfortable with who you are and go into a relationship, then brace yourself for an emotional whirlwind. But if you know what you want and you handle your emotions well, a relationship can toughen you up.

Friend 2: Ako naman, I know what I can do, and I know my limitations. Alam ko kung hanggang saan lang ako dapat. Tsaka, hindi ko priority ang love, I mean relationship, kasi I have this feeling na pe-perahan ka lang, or someone will just take advantage. About intimacy, ayokong mangyari yun, kasi, pag gusto ko ang isang bagay, hahanap-hanapin ko. Just the same with going intimate with another person, ayokong masanay, ayokong hanap-hanapin yun. Ika nga, once you pop, you can't stop. Ayoko nun.

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Sabi na kasing wag nang mag-invest ng feelings e.

Meron kasing mga taong takot magsabi ng mararamdaman hanggat hindi sila nagiging sure na reciprocated ang feelings nila. Magiging close kayo, maghihintay ka ng pagkakataong magsabi shiya, pero hindi naman darating. Aasa ka ng aasa hanggat sa marealize mong wala ka na palang dapat pang asahan kasi bumalik siya sa iniwan niyang girlfriend.

Badtrip. Confused lang pala si lalake, at naghahanap ng kapalit.

So. ayan, ikaw, at a loss ka. Bakit mo pa kasi inentertain ang hudas. At bakit mo pa kasi hinayang kiligin ang sarili mo sa mga bagay-bagay na ginagawa niya para sayo.

So, naisahan ka na naman.

Kala mo you are getting even by being passive and not showing your feelings, though you went out with him for a time.

So paano nang gagawin mo? Nasaan na ang ere ng confidence na ipinakita mo dati nung nandyan pa siya sa tabi mo?

Tongerks ka kasi. So, ayan, tinamaan ka ng kidlat.


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At sa munting @ssH)0Le! na duwag, karmahin ka sana. You are not worthy of anything, even friendship....Asa ka pang bumalik ang pagkakaibigan ninyo. Hindi na pwedeng mangyari yun. Things have to change, dahil kung hindi, pareho lang kayong nagpapakatanga at nagpaplastikan!

Tamaan ka rin sana ng kidlat!