appreciation day

There’s this certain elation that comes with being appreciate, or of being acknowledged for the things that you have done. It doesn’t have to be a big matter or action, as long as you receive that certain pat at the back, it gives you a much renewed confidence, as well as strength.

When I opened my friendster page last night, it surprised me that someone will actually give the time to open my blog page. It’s not that it’s something worthy enough to be visited, but at least somebody did. It may be out of curiosity and of wanting to find out what’s up with me and with what I’m doing right now. Anyway, to continue my story, a friend actually commented on my “ramblings”. I will not delve into the details of what the person really told me, but it was a commendation. And it felt good. Alright, I’ll disclose the friend’s name, so to give her proper credit and also to thank her for the appreciation, thabks Ivy!...those were really nice words of encouragement!!!!, hi to the whole Aringay family!!!!

Joey recently told me that I have to put aside inhibitions of thinking that I’m no good at the craft I want to pursue (well, I don’t want to go on ranting about being able write again). He advised that I should try reading lots of blog sites (and well, he even referred me to blog sites which he found really amusing), and also to post my own “literary” works and all that. I was (and is still) hesitant about wanting to post some fiction or poems I have. It’s out of fear, actually of having somebody who will copy your ideas or claim it as their own. As you see, the web is a free for all, marketplace of ideas, and there can be stealing, and other kinds of danger on idea and philosophy claiming…What strength do I have against other “netizens” who have the ability of claiming other ideas and even enhancing it. I’m not even known, more so popular and powerful. I’m just a struggling writer “wanna-be” (oops!, ding on belittling myself! Strike one!)…Anyway, I’m just being careful. Careful to keep things on print rather than cyberspace. Anyway, back to my story with Joey, he blurted out “ano ba! Wala naman mawawala mo, kahihiyan mo lang, e bakit nyanya, meron ka pa ba non?!?”… hahaha…walanghiya ka joey!....hehehe…but kidding aside, It will come in time, and I do have plans with my “works”…meron akong paglalagakan sa kanila!

Joey was absent for the shift tonight. I felt bored and sleepy. Wala akong kaasaran…walang nanlalait sa akin…di tuloy gumagana ang utak ko!. Anyway, this is one of those times you just miss having somebody to bug you and tell you stupid things, it keeps your mind working and get critical! I miss his rants and bloopers!

Czeriza will actually help me with my so-called “works”. I’m not asking her to be careful; I’m asking her to be blunt enough to tell if I actually have a future at the craft. I still don’t know what’s going to happen, but whatever that is, I will not stop!

The tarot cards have told me to brave enough about criticisms and other’s opinion about the things that I want to do and want to happen! Again, thanks to Joey for introducing me to the power of the tarots!

Anyway, it feels good to have a fictionist or creative writer as a friend, especially when you’re in that phase of wanting to know if you want to pursue the same craft. He/she can refer you to the right people and right places, even!