being the ate

My mind's a big clutter right now. Picture it as a big abstract collage with different things, different concerns that I need to do, things that will hopefully improve my life.

Hopefully, it's supposed to improve the state that I'm in right now. Doing those things with ease, with grace serves as a form of practice for the bigger things that I need to do.

Well, laugh at me for being so praning once I have told about the things I need to do!

I need to file my sister's sss application for work. Before leaving the house, I have made a plan inside my head that today, I'll be going early to the ss office, then submit applications for my freelance writing stints.

Unfortunately, I woke up late. (I'm so tired, I need sleep because I 've been from the office for work the night before). I woke up at 11am, had my brunch, rested a little, then at 1pm, went out to start my days adventure.

Kamalas malasan, I forgot to bring my sister's birth cert. (w/c needs to be submitted for an sss applctn.),. So I had to go back, all the way from mkna to taytay jus to get that badly needed document.

Suddenly, it rained. Then, there was the building traffic which I had to endure.

I decided to proceed at the nearest ss office, (which services only include initial applicatn for ss and other loans,) unfortunately they don't have id appplicatn as one of their services which I also need and planned to submit as well since Im there already.

Then, when it was my turn to be assisted, the clerk told me, "oh, we will be needing an authorized letter from your sister for her application, and a valid id that serves to verify her signature"

darn. that means I had to go back again.

It was still drizzling outside.

I texted my sister about it.

Of course, her initial reaction and reply to me was "paano yn, di ako mkakasweldo?!"

At the back of my mind, I was like, "kailangan ko pa bang problemahin pati iyon?!?"

So much for being the responsible ate.

Still, I've decided to help her. Of course, I mustered all my strength, all my patience that I need. I don't want to let my angst and stress clod me. I'm trying my best to manage that myself.

I went to sss mkna to make her application. Baka sakaling makalusot.

My sister texted, "wag mo nlng sabihin na para sa kapatid mo yn, sabihin mo sa iyo"

so I did.

when I went at the counter, the clerk told me, "ano to!" she was referring to the thumbmark made by my sister by shading her thumb with ink just the other day. (just to describe how it looks like, mukha shang binaboy, hindi maayos!)

add to that the signature, wriiten in blue, when it was supposed to be black.

"at bakit blu an ginamit mo dito?" asked the clerk

I told her, "hindiko po kc nabasa na kailangan black"

(hmm...hmm so much for taking the embarassment my sister should have experienced herself.